but i was uber-uber-nervous because i knew that a VERY IMPORTANT PERSON would be sitting in the audience listening to me. and that person just happens to mean the whole world to me.
i wish i shared it that eloquently. but i didn't. i stuttered. my thoughts were scattered. and i sweat a LOT. like "running on the treadmill, dripping down my face kind of sweat". i know - it's gross. and it happens every time i speak in public. UBER FAIL! but i am still joyful!
psalm 78:4 says "we will tell the next generation the praiseworthy deeds of the LORD, his power and the wonders he has done." and i was able to do exactly that. i shared about God's praiseworthy deeds, His power and His wonders. it's always an honor when God opens the door for me to share my story to others, especially the next generation (even if i get all nervous and sweaty and scared). but it's extra special because my long time dream was to share God's power to MY next generation.
the beautiful thing about this is: as my story continues to unfold, my son's own story and testimony is unfolding as well. and because he saw first hand what God's power of grace and forgiveness can do, i have seen it impact his life in such a powerful way that he holds no grudges towards his grandparents or even his biological father [read a part of his story here]
children are a heritage from the Lord, offspring a reward from Him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are children born in one's youth. blessed is the [wo]man whose quiver is full of them. - psalm 127:3-5
seeing him sitting there looking at me reminded me to continue to be wise with how i am choosing to build, because that will be the legacy that i will leave behind. having him there reminded me that he is an arrow, a weapon God has put in my hand. and one day he will be launched further than i will ever go. knowing that reminds me to continue to build and live my life in such a way so that my ceiling will one day be their floor to stand on.
i cannot wait for the day when another dream of mine is realized... when it will be me sitting in the audience listening to him share his testimony as he tells others about the praiseworthy deeds, power and wonders of God.