Thursday, July 25, 2013

out of the overflow of your heart, your FB statuses, tweets, and words speak #dailysoulfood

"but i will HOPE continually, and will PRAISE You yet more and more" [psalm 71:14]  "for out of the overflow of our hearts, the mouth speaks" [luke 6:45]

i will HOPE continually. i will PRAISE more and more.

i look at this verse and it's challenging me to the core. it's such a simple verse, yet it's piercing my heart. as i was reading this, i asked myself the question, "do i hope continually? and do i praise more and more?"

or are there moments when i find myself becoming hopeless and ungrateful.? an ungrateful heart is one that finds no reason to praise.

i WILL hope and praise.... 

the psalmist commanded his soul to hope and to praise. so shall i do mine. no matter the circumstances. no matter the surroundings. no matter the situation at hand. no matter how people around me piss me off or irritate me. no matter how much money (or lack thereof) i see in the bank.

i will hope continuously and praise MORE AND MORE.

more and more...does my life express fresh praise? what new testimony am i declaring that is giving glory to my King? has my praise become stale? am i continuing to look for creative ways to express how thankful and grateful i am to my Lord who has saved me and done great things for me? creative ways like declaring his works to others, sharing the gospel to other people, choosing to let positive and thankful things come out of my mouth instead of grumbling and complaining and gossiping.

because out of the OVERFLOW of my heart, my mouth speaks [luke 6:45]

out of the overflow of my heart... my mouth [via facebook status, my twitter updates, my instagram posts, the tone of voice i use to talk to my loved ones] speaks.


i wonder....what are others hearing that is overflowing from my heart when i open my mouth?

Dear God, help me to continously put my hope in You and not in circumstances, man, or others idols. help me sing your praises more and more. Gently nudge my heart to find reasons to sing your praise, especially in the midst of circumstances or confusion or irritation or fear. help my mouth overflow with good and positive things, filled with praise and hope. You are my reason to sing and to worship and i thank you that you are the Rock in whom i can  put my hope on. I praise you for your unending love and your grace in my life. Amen.

what are others hearing from your mouth when you speak?

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

i live for days like this.

We had such a fun family day today! Haven't been able to sit still much coz this past week was a BUSY week... So I'm glad we had a day to REST and just BE with family.

Got to sit and quiet my soul this morning while everyone was still asleep. Journaled and spent time reading the Word, praying and challenging myself to continue to dream even bigger dreams for God to accomplish in and through my life and my family's life. 

After spending time in the Word, we played "tourist" and went to the north shore to visit John's old stomping grounds. We ate garlic and butter shrimp at Macky's Shrimp Truck.

This shrimp plate lunch is to-die-for. The hubs like this place better than other shrimp trucks. I've only tried 3 other trucks and this is the one I like best too. Last time we were here was last September, so we were overdue for this cholesteroly goodness.

Then we went to the Dole Plantation. Karielle got to see where her dad grew up and where her grandma used to work (at the shops in Dole Plantation). It's was a hot day today so even if i was super-stuffed with buttered-garlick-shrimp, i STILL had to have a LiHing pineapple softserve. Talk about #fattystatus. Meanwhile, the son ran around the 2+ mile maze. That is why he is skinny and this is why I weigh the amount that I do.

All in all, it was a beautiful day! My tummy and my heart are full. And to top it all off, tonight, I meet with the ladies in our small group :)


Friday, July 12, 2013

what the heck happened to me?

last week, I had a conversation with my friend about how I used to "love journalling and writing". the conversation came about because i had a book of mine in my hand that i was going to lend to another friend. the book was about being in the wilderness.

inside the book, i had a gajillion notes written on the margins.  i read the words i scribbled.... words that echoed once in my heart.... i could still feel the raw emotions i felt 6 years ago when i penned those words....

after reading the notes, i thought to myself.... "wow, I used to write and journal with such a passion.... what the heck happened to me?"

it's been a week since that conversation happened and I'm still pondering over that question.... 

What happened to me?
What happened to the old me that used to love to express my thoughts in words and pictures?

this blog was once filled with my heart poured out in words as i wrestled through the wilderness season of my life....

this blog was once filled with things i was passionate about...

like being a voice for anti-human trafficking and anti-abuse.
spreading the gospel.
feeding the homeless.
volunteering for different organizations.
helping other women find their dreams and challenging them to run after it.

this blog was once filled with the beautiful journey as a single mom, telling stories of the highs and lows of me and my son's life.

this blog documented my life and the amazing things God was doing in and through me and my family

not that I don't do those things or feel that way anymore fact i think the things are happening in my life right now are showing God's glory and miracle in my life even at a greater capacity...

but somehow the writing stopped.

in the midst of getting married.
working at church. meeting with people. telling others about God.
having a brand new baby who demands my constant attention.
cleaning, cooking, cleaning again, folding laundry, etc etc.

i made excuses like "im too busy" or "I have no time to write".

I even said things like "blogging is dead", "only those that blog are the ones who make money off of it",  "who needs to write, everyone and their mom seems to be writing a book these days... what do I have to say that's different from them? "

i even used "writer's block" as an if I'm really a freakin' writer....helllluuuuuur Patricia.... get your ass out of the clouds and back to reality....

honestly....i don't even journal my devotion thoughts nor do I do s.o.a.p., s.p.a. or any kind of writing anymore.

the reality is....

i became too lazy to write and journal..... (truth be told, i was definitely busier when I was a single mom.) in that process of laziness and busy-ness.... I somehow lost a part of me. The ability to express was taken away....

That's when I realized that writing and journaling was more for me than for others.

i didn't write to get noticed or be heard...(obviously, coz my grammar is so not the business). i wrote on this blog and in my journals because my heart needed an outlet. My heart needs a space to tell stories or vent, to blab, to cry, to celebrate and rejoice.

my heart needs this. I need this. 

i'm hoping that this recent epiphany will give me enough reason to follow through with journaling my devotions. This time around, I hope to allow myself the time to sit and be vulnerable to share my heart in words once again.

I hope that as I take time to journal and write and create, I will find that part of myself that i feel like i lost...coz i need that part of me back.