Saturday, December 31, 2011

2011 started in barrenness & ended up with fruitfulness. Believe #oneword2011

Started 2011 with 21 days of fasting, BELIEVING God for a breakthrough after years of tears... Ended 2011 with songs of joy in my heart - living in Hawaii, as a minister of His word and now I'm married to a wonderful man. God always gives us more than what we ask for if we just continue to BELIEVE. #oneword2011 Bring on 2012 - coz we only go from faith to faith, strength to strength and glory to glory.

Happy new year everyone!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

This is the day.

This is the day that the Lord has made...i will rejoice and be glad in it. this day has been written in my book of life, even before I came to be. This day has been in God's heart since the beginning of eternity.

Monday, December 26, 2011

The birds, the bees and the wrong hole.

A serious conversation this morning when I went to fiance's home. John is giving the kiddo the full birds & the bees "talk". as I walked into the room, the kid says to me with much disdain in his face: "you girls have 3 holes?!? You need to tell him if he goes into the wrong hole mom!!!".

Then after their whole convo, kiddo said it's interesting how God created us... He's pretty smart to create us that way.

What a wonderful way to start the day ;)

Friday, December 23, 2011

Merry and bright.

May your days be merry and bright (as bright as bambam's shining star)! ;)
Merry Christmas from our family to yours!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Hello Xmas vacation.

Late night trip to the grocery store to buy Moose track ice cream = $6

Beautiful lights glowing from
the Xmas tree = borrowed from the M family.

watching tv/movies the whole night coz they have no need to get up early tomorrow = awesomeness.

Having to sleep in an empty home by myself coz my son & my dog are sleeping over the fiance's house = kinda sucky.

Seeing my 2 boys cuddle while watching = priceless.

Hello Christmas vacation. We missed u so! These next 2 weeks are gonna be FUN! (though it's kinda strange not having to wear layers of clothing for Xmas)

Sunday, December 11, 2011


Praise him with trumpet sound; praise him with lute and harp! (Psalm 150:3 ESV)

Thursday, December 8, 2011

all things are possible indeed. #oneword2011

i moved here to hawaii to change the world. leaving family and friends behind, i packed my bags and took my son and my dog and decided to serve God here as a missionary to help a local church and bring a lil crazy flava' to the islands. as soon as i got here though, God decided it would be fun to turn my world completely upside down and He surprised me with a wonderful gift to heal my heart. 

my biggest fear in life was my fear of marriage. any one of my friends and those of you who've been reading my blog know how much that fear has gripped my heart. i would fly anywhere, write anything, talk to anyone for the gospel... but the one thing i never desired was to ever be in a place where my heart would be vulnerable in the hands of someone else.

i had to move 2500 miles away from home to realize how much my heart needed to learn to trust - in God and eventually in a man. i had to move 2500 miles away to realize how much my son needed a godly male role model in his life on a daily basis. so God brought along John, my friend, my homie, my neighbor (literally) to help bring healing to my heart.

his name means God is merciful and gracious / a gift from God. his name speaks of how my heart feels every time i think of how God orchestrated every little detail for us to be together. he waited 35 years for me to come along, living purely in the eyes of God, completely trusting in God that a wife would come along one day. he had people praying for him. i didn't desire marriage but i had people (literally my whole church & my family, relatives & friends) praying for me that i would one day change my heart.

and my heart was changed.
now i have a fiance.
and i'm getting married.

to say that is one of the greatest miracles of all time. (seriously). if you knew how stubborn i was and how much i hated the idea, you'd know how much of a miracle this was. but God is in the business of transforming lives and changing hearts. and im so glad He changed my heart.

i was reading through emails of prayers of people who cried for my heart to be healed.  i have emails of prophetic words that people have shared to me through out the years of how God spoke to their hearts to pray for my husband. i have emails and letters sent to me by powerful prayer warriors telling me that a marriage was gonna happen soon, even before i moved out to hawaii.

when the righteous pray... God moves heaven and earth for them.

our story is a testimony of how powerful prayers are and how God can truly turn things around in one day. i am so grateful that i get to spend this holiday season with my son and my dog and my fiance, doing what i love to do which is to be a minister and a missionary for God, while living in one of the most beautiful places in the world.  though my journey has been one of pain, tears and a lot of trials, my #oneword2011 journey to BELIEVE has proven that ALL THINGS are possible indeed for him or her who believes. [mk 9:23]

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

You don't write because you want to say write because you have something to say.

I got this gift in the mail today.

Definitely in tears right now. I'm so thankful for friends that remind you of the dreams in your heart and encourage you to go on and pursue them.

This gift came at the perfect time coz I had a terrible week before this. I lost my part time job (from which came a significant amount of money i needed to pay my bills since I'm here only on missionary support). Plus I got super sick on my birthday and my dog caught fleas which cost $200 to get rid off (which i had to take from my savings for Christmas money.)

After this weekend my heart was so discouraged and disheartened. And I was asking God to throw me a bone and give me something to encourage me of my dreams.

I love how God uses people and circumstances to bring encouragement at the perfect time.

This gift reminded me of the promises God was speaking to me as I was sick in bed resting on my birthday. He spoke tenderly promises to me that this coming year would be the beginning of a completely new season of my life. That all the years of tears that I've sown has watered the seeds and now a harvest is about to come (and has began to come already). And He had to bring me to a completely new place (where I don't know anybody) in order for me to see His great miracle working power to take my walk with Him to the next level and that only He could have the power to do these things.

I can't wait to write fresh revelations and promises for this coming season.

  • A new season as a missionary working for the kingdom of God in one of the most beautiful places on earth.
  • A new season as a soon-to-be wife of a great godly man.
  • A new season to have a new name and a new beginning.
  • A new season as God's minister who was given a mandate to proclaim His praise in the islands. (isaiah 42:12)
A new season awaits and by the end of next year these fresh pages will be filled of His promises and testimonies of His faithfulness and goodness.

"He has given me a new song to sing...a hymn of praise to God. many will see what He has done and be amazed and they will put their trust in the Lord." (psalm 40:3)

Thank you to my dear friend and sister Anna, for reminding me that I write because I have something to say... And I thank God for giving me the words to proclaim His praises and sing of His faithfulness all the days of my life.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

My face = exactly how I feel. Sucks to be me right now.

2 months ago I had an ear infection. I went to the beach and had a swimmers ear. The pain lasted a week and everything I heard was pretty much muffled. That sound lingered for 2 months. I was deaf in my right ear and had a hard time hearing. I had to drink antibiotic and put in ointments and do ear flushes and after 2 months of annoying began to feel better a couple of weeks ago...

Or so I thought.

Yesterday the ear infection came back with a damn vengeance. Today I am in so much pain that Tylenol isn't even doing anything for me anymore. My ear is swollen :( I have to put ice on my ear so it numbs out the external pain I feel coz of all the crap that's in my ear that's causing the infection.

An my ear chose to do this 2 days before I celebrate my birthday. :/ so i had to cancel my birthday dinner. Sucks to be me right now.

Please say a prayer for me if you can. I am believing for supernatural healing coz this single mama has no insurance and I can't afford to go to a specialist.

I know my God is a healer. I am trusting in His promise that He removes all my diseases (psalm 103)... Please stand in prayer with me and believe with me for healing.

Thank you.