Tuesday, September 27, 2011

On a date.

Chocolate moo'd with my favorite boy.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Hiking. Prayer. Pillbox.

Monday, September 19, 2011

fear is louder.

the fear is louder than words.

the fear is louder and the silence on this page has been deafening.

the fear is louder in the midst of all the emotions my heart is feeling.

the fear is louder than the peace.

the fear is louder than the warm fuzzies and butterflies.

the fear is shouting louder than His promises.

the fear is louder than the voices and hearts that are trying to reach out and help.

the fear is louder than everything good that's been happening around me.

the fear is louder.

and i am paralyzed by it.

i feel so bound by it.

and i cannot seem to let it go.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Extra lovin'

The kiddo is sick today so he gets home made chicken soup & some extra loving. Say a prayer for him if you can. Thanks

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

God paints.

One of my personal favorite things to do to remind me of God's love is to look up at the sky each time the sun sets (or if I'm up early enough... when the sun rises).

As I'm looking, I imagine that God is painting the sky for me alone so I can appreciate and enjoy His work of art. His masterpiece in the sky varies day by day just so I have something new to look at. I seriously think I'm His favorite and have no qualms in my head about it. I realized it to be more true when He asked me to move here in the islands. 

The sunsets here in Hawaii are breathtakingly beautiful. the sky is filled with hues of orange and pink, yellow, blue, red and gray. Man, God sure does know how to show off and impress my heart coz each day I am enamored by His ability to make my heart smile with the littlest things.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

what do you want?

I said i long for my eyes to be opened to see.
See the beauty in the ashes of my bound up heart.
See the beauty of Your desire for me.
To trust fully and to be free.

You said "hold out your heart" so that I may begin to heal.
I looked at my heart, all bent up and deformed.
The heart that has been crippled by fear.
Bound by rejection. Toughened by circumstances.
Why would You want a heart like this, My God?

You've asked me to open the door that i've tried so hard to close.
You've asked me to tear down the walls i've built for myself.
You've asked me to trust this bleeding heart in Your Hands.
You've asked me to burst the bubble of self-protection that i have built.

Though i try to resist, Your love pulls me in.
Though i try to run away, Your voice lures my heart.
Like a magnet, I keep on coming back.
Deeper and deeper, as i rest in Your embrace.
In Your arms, I know my heart is safe.
In the shadow of your wings, I have found solace.

Every gentle Word You speak chips away at the walls i've tried so hard to build.
Every stroke of Your hand eases the muscles of my constricting heart.
Your smile alone has enough power for me to let go of the grasp.
the grasp on the door i've held on to for so long.

Take my whole heart God, it's completely Yours.
I am choosing to trust You, despite the unseen.
I am choosing to do it scared, even if im completely terrified.
I am choosing to believe, even when everything in me wants to doubt.
I am choosing to live free.
because i know it is for freedom that You came, so that i may be set free.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Laundry


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"Laundry ... Coz people in Hawaii still do actually hang their laundry outdoors #808update"