Monday, February 28, 2011

dead things.

my sister found these dead leaves/branches in a thrift store. she put them on a canvas and now these dead things have added life to a room.

sometimes the dead things, the things that weigh us down, will be the very things that we need to add a bit of zest to our lives and to our environment as well.

you gotta admit, my sister is pretty artsy fartsy :)

Sunday, February 27, 2011

drive, eat, sleep, oscars.

my sunday: church. wonderful view of the snowcapped mountains while driving home, grubbin on some  mexican food (taco meat, elotes, rice and cerveza), took a nap and watched the oscars. i love lazy sundays.

thoughts on the oscars: i like anne hathaway, but i definitely thought she wooo-hoooo'd WAY.TOO.MUCH. while introducing every other actor/actress. can you say annoying?? i also didnt really like her dress towards the know the tom ford one with the nipple chain. 

my fave: james franco. he was adorable. that and bob hope making a comeback from the grave. that and seeing all the facial reactions of those who didn't win the award... and seeing people paid millions of dollars stutter coz they didnt bother to practice their acceptance speech (they probably thought they were going to lose).

watching the oscars made me realize that i need to work on watching boot-legged movies even more... coz out of all the movies that were nominated, the only ones i've seen were: how to train your dragon, social network and alice in wonderland. yeah, im not much of a movie buff. i can't really afford to be spending that kind of money in the theaters.

and last but not least, i think they did the children a disservice by letting them perform in those hideous t-shirts. seriously academy award staff - you guys couldnt afford to dress them in nice lil vera wang dresses and armani tuxs? tsk tsk tsk 

Saturday, February 26, 2011

ramen and rainbows.

while it was raining/hailing/snowing i was eating ramen in downtown LA 

in the midst of gray skies, God provides a color of hope.

spent the rest of this unusually cold day with the living room church family, eating free in and out burger and wearing pajamas while watching terminator 2 with my lil man. 

Friday, February 25, 2011

cousins jerkin'

to kinect's dance central.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

hard day.

broken glass.
nail in my tire.

today was a hard day.

but in the midst of a hard day...
God still showed up and showed Himself faithful.

with friends who give.
and twitter friends who pray.
with strangers who encourage.
and family members who support.
with His Spirit that comforts.
and His Word that promises.

thankful that God has blessed me with real treasures.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

my favorite person.

my son left a note on my bed last night. he told me to read 1 samuel 18:16 on his bible (ICB version). he underlined the scripture that said: 'all the people in israel and judah loved david, this was because he led them well in battle'.

he said he really likes this verse a lot because he can relate to it. underneath the word 'them' he put people and underneath the word 'battle' he put hard times. david led God's people through hard times and that's why they loved him.

i love how he reads his bible the same way i do...with underlines and notes (see here). he is after all, my son and my favoritest person ever....

i captured a moment of our starbucks date last night, as i was trying to post stuff i needed to sell online to make a lil extra cash. we've had a rough couple of weeks since my boss cut hours at the office... and i've been fighting off stress and worrying a lot.  it's like we've been fighting a constant "battle". we don't have a home. we dont even have our own roon. my job is in limbo. our future is uncertain. our car might get repossessed. i don't have enough money to pay for groceries or drive anywhere. and this single mama is  struggling to make ends meet.

those who know us know how hard these past years have been for me and him... but it's in moments like these that make my heart smile, despite all the trials. seeing my son in love with God's Word like this makes  all the tears we've cried and all the hard work worth it.

because my treasure is not in stature, riches, wealth , ministry or even stability. my treasure is fully invested in raising this next generation world changer. he is my little david. he leads me to stay strong through battles and i am so very proud of him.

"train up a child in the way they should go...."

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

amazing grace.

i LOVE listening to podcasts and reading books authored by well-seasoned christians. don't get me wrong, i love me some andy stanley and chris caine sermons and francis chan books and even a few occasions of osteen's happy thoughts and even rarer are driscoll's opinions (but this is very, very rare.)

but i glean so much when i listen or read works of charles stanley or chuck swindoll, jack hayford, and even tozer, spurgeon, chambers, etc. there is a beauty of grace, mixed in with a reverential fear of God and a lifetime of experiences that speak to my heart so much.

i borrowed this book from the library today. it's called 'the grace awakening' by chuck swindoll. i will start reading it tonight. i pray that, while reading this book, God will illuminate a deeper understanding in my mind and in my heart as to what His amazing grace really looks like.

hoping that by the end of this book... there would be an awakening in my life to live it as an example and an agent of God's grace.

what books are you reading right now?? care to share and give me some good recommendations for future reads.

Monday, February 21, 2011

crazy commercial and chocolate chip pancakes.

this commercial makes me laugh in an awkward kind of way. she's so freaky and scary =(

by the way, my friend made some delish breakfast this morning. scrambled eggs and chocolate chip pancakes. yum! and another friend of mine was so gracious to bless me with her old computer so i can start writing/posting blogs again.

i also got paid to massage another friend today too. after the massage, she gave me a bag of groceries. perfect! i actually don't have that much grocery money this month, so this was a great blessing.

in the midst of great need since my boss cut my hours, God is so faithful to provide. so thankful for friends who are channels of blessings as well. :)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

happiest place :)

the. best. date. ever.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

massage. sundae. jacks and dunk contests.

my day.

Friday, February 18, 2011

desperate promises.

she made a promise to give her son's life to the Lord for all the days of his life. [1samuel1:11]  because she spoke a biblical promise over herself and her family.. God listened to her prayer and allowed her to have her hearts' desire.  she would finally be with child and give birth to a son.

im sure she reveled with the thought of  her miracle. imagine... something that she had been believing for and was praying for is finally coming to pass. she became pregnant. once she weaned her child and the time was right... she gave her child back to God and let him live in the temple his whole life. [1samuel 1:27-28]

so many times this has happened to me. i pray that God would do a miracle in my life. i make desperate promises during desperate times.... and even use His Word to speak things over me in order for Him to listen.

God please give me a job coz you are my Provider... so i can give to the church or to others more.
God please give me a new car so i can use it to serve you.
God please bless me and make me a great mother so i can disciple this next generation
God please give me a computer so i can write more about You and Your Word.
God please give me a ministry so i can share about You more. 
God please enlarge my territory, that you would bless me I can be of more use for You.
God please give me the gift of prophecy & intercession & leadership so i can use it to encourage others.

and because He is a compassionate God who cares for me and wants to lavish His love on me.... He listens and gives me the desires of my heart.

but unlike Hannah, im not quick to follow through with my promise. instead of giving it all back to Him... i find myself often holding on to the answers and not letting go. i find that i often neglect my promise.

He gave me a job but i've been so busy, i dont really have much time to serve like i used to.
He gave me a new car, but i haven't been able to drive much coz gas is expensive.
He gives me a chance to homeschool my child to be with him 24/7 and i lose patience because we're always together.
He gave me a computer a few years ago... and i used it more for twitter & FB than blogging.
He gave me a smallgroup & a platform to teach, yet i sometimes feel like it's not enough.
He has blessed me indeed and enlarged my  territory, and yet im constantly busy
He has allowed me to grow in the gift of prophecy & intercession & leadership yet there are times when i see it as a burden, because im already "busy" and too tired to spend time and labor in prayer and intercession.

He gives...and yet... im not faithful to give back and follow through with my promises.

i pray that i will be able to fulfill the promises i speak to Him during times of desperation and frustration. i pray that i will be like Hannah, and do what i said i would do... because if we are faithful to obey and work with the little He has given us... He promises to give us even more.

"when you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools, fulfill your vow. it is better not to vow than to make a vow and not fulfill it. do not let your mouth lead you to sin. and ddo not protest "it was a mistake...much dreaming and many words are meaningless. therefor stand in awe of God"  [ecclesiastes 5:4-7]

"and the Lord was gracious to Hannah; she conceived and gave birth to three sons and two daughters." [1samuel 2:21]

Thursday, February 17, 2011

hella pinoy.

fresh lumpia. kutsinta. hopia. #goldilocks :)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

pusoy dos.

Playing pusoy dos at church with my son :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

casavega, jk & celebrity sightings.

Had a wonderful dinner & a great conversation with @juliakate at casa vega tonight. Here's the best pic I could take of my burrito. It's kinda dark in casa vega so it looked like my camera flash was annoying the tables around us (and I was probably embarrassing @juliakate).

I seriously love how twitter brings people together! We had a great convo about people, the church, family and more. Ya'll should get to know this woman! Check her out at: She has a great personality with a generous heart and is gifted with so much wisdom and she keeps it real.

Plus she's got eagle eyes. She saw 2 celebrities while we were there, while I remained oblivious to the world around me. (It's also coz I didn't have my glasses on and without it I'm blind). Apparently we sat next to hal linden (Barney Miller) and we even got to see cameron from (modern family). He is so not gay! He had his arms wrapped around his wife (or gf). I soooo wanted to take a pic of cam, but if I did that, @juliakate would've probably left me and pretended she didn't know me... so I stopped myself ;)

by the way, the burrito was delish! Julia, thanks for the wonderful dinner! Till next time. xoxo.

Monday, February 14, 2011

vday greetings for the married. single. and the next generation

happy valentines day to those of you who have someone to share this day with... enjoy each others' presence, gifts and the love that you share with each other. it's a beautiful thing to have.

and to the rest of us.... happy single's awareness day. =] enjoy stuffing your face with chocolates and taking cold shower(s) today! LOL

by the way, my son's gave this gift for me for v-day: he gave me something sweet and sugary and made a home made card and flowers while signing bruno mars' "just the way you are" to me. out now. im training him to be a debonair gentleman already. 
LLCoolC - ladies love cool christian =]

Sunday, February 13, 2011


found this quote in a magazine at starbucks... clearly it wasn't a christian magazine. it was either a health magazine or some fashion one. the quote says:

"i will glean from my God-given gifts and the wisdom of others and let every *run be a *run of faith to realize my destiny." - ryan hall

*replace  the word run with something that you're passionate about doing and let that be the very tool that helps your faith to realize your destiny.

God has given each of us specific gifts, talents and passions. own your gifts and talents and use it for the glory of God. as you do, God will begin to unfold the beautiful details of your life that will make and mark your destiny.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

family. food. fun

Beautiful 80's weather. Delish breakfast made by my brother in law. Nephew and nieces birthday party. Hanging out at the beach with family in the middle of winter. Watching the beautiful sun set in the beach. Eat all you can korean bbq. 2.12.11 = perfect.

Friday, February 11, 2011

tore up.

i love me some Word of God. His Word sustains me, feeds me, encourages me, guides me and so much more. i just can't get enough of it.

but i think it's time to retire this bible of mine. this one is old and tore up. i've had this bible since '97 and i absolutely love this version. love the commentary, the kingdom dynamic notes, the insights, the word wealth boxes where it translates a specific word from its hebrew/greek origin.

the new bible i wasnt is an ESV study bible. sooooo, if anyone wants to bless me with one, i'd be really happy and i promise that i will read it, highlite and underline it, take notes on it, and love on it :)

Thursday, February 10, 2011

never stop learning.

 i love this quote:

"One of the things my dad really stressed with us is that you have to know your business inside out. You don't have to do every job all by yourself, but you have to truly know what the job entails in order to hire the best person possible to do it. For that reason, I think it is so important to never stop learning about the business you are in. Because when you decide you know everything, you know nothing" - @AdrienneMaloof (co-owner of maloof companies, palms casino and resort and sacramento kings).

Never. Stop. Learning.

my #project365 pic for the day is me reading a book about communication (the confident speaker). since i want to become a speaker/teacher, i might as well invest my time to study on how to speak effectively and deliver it with confidence. this book is great. check it out.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

pretty in pink.

 dried dead flowers can still add life to a room.


in the beginning of this year, as i was praying for my local church and the body of Christ, i saw a picture in my mind of a chess set. as i took the time to pray and ask Him what this picture meant... the word strategy came to mind. webster dictionary defines strategy as:

1: a (1) : the science and art of employing the political, economic, psychological, and military forces of a nation or group of nations to afford the maximum support to adopted policies in peace or war (2) : the science and art of military command exercised to meet the enemy in combat under advantageous conditions b : a variety of or instance of the use of strategy
2: a a careful plan or method : a clever stratagem b : the art of devising or employing plans or stratagems toward a goal
3: an adaptation or complex of adaptations (as of behavior, metabolism, or structure) that serves or appears to serve an important function in achieving evolutionary success

i believe this year God  is wanting to position His people, His army, and His Bride in the proper strategic places for 2011. it's in those proper places where we will be able to be used to our fullest potential, and be used to advanced the Kingdom of God in the specific areas of influence that God has given us. 

but before we find ourselves in those proper strategic places, we must need to know our own identity in Him and the call He has placed in our lives individually before we can begin to move corporately.
as i was praying, i realized that the church often puts a spotlight on the "preachers,  pastors, prophets,  evangelists, leaders, etc".the "smaller" people are often forgotten.  who are the smaller people? well they are the ones who sign the children into kid's church. or the ones who help clean the toilets before the sunday service begins. or the ones who change diapers at kids church. they are the ones who empty out the trash, usher you into the building, prepare the food for the events, the ones who labor in prayer for you during the service for God's will to be done here in earth as it is in heaven. 

they are the ones who don't get applauded. they dont have their faces in the bulletin. people don't often know their names. in the game of chess, they could be considered the pawns or the knights...the ones doing the "smaller" work.

i know deep inside our hearts, everyone longs to be the "king or a queen".  but the reality is, not every one is called to be in that position. in fact, most of us are called to be pawns, knights, bishops and rooks.. that's the reality.  and because that is the reality, we limit ourselves and God because we feel like we aren't "anointed" enough. yet, what we fail to realize is that the king and the queen cannot make make a move unless the knights and the pawns do their job. it's the pawns and knights that pave the way for the queen to make her move in order for the game to be won.

this just goes to show that we should never compare our giftings with other people. instead we should embrace the call , the gifts, the capabilities, the strengths He's put in our lives and not compare ourselves to others. 

if He's called you to be a prayer warrior, you need to pray with all your might... if it's a preacher, preach with all your might...if it's the gift of helps, help with all our might., if it's the gift of love as you sit at the kids church changing some dirty diaper, own that call with all your might. 

as we move together as a team and embrace our strengths and weaknesses, we are allowing God to position us into strategic locations and areas of influence so we can live lives to our fullest potential . run your course the best way you can and encourage others to do the same. if we choose to work in unity, He can continue to use all of us to build and advance His Kingdom here on earth.

checkmate. xoxo.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

gg and mf.

catching up on some gossip girl and modern family.
i used to hate watching tv, but having DVR changes everything.

Monday, February 7, 2011

prince of persia.

Sunday, February 6, 2011


used the starbucks giftcard that i won last weekend to buy me a trenta black tea lemonade. (trenta is the biggest size you can order @ st. bux). each sip i took brought me to my happy place. i also had a great convo with an amazing, emerging leader @dorshkind88 and my best sister in law ever =]

btw, it was also superbowl sunday today. packers won... but i'm not a big football fan so whatever.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

i heart benadryl.

Friday, February 4, 2011

say my name.

we went to downtown la to show my cousin (who's visiting from the philippines) around town. we passed by LA Live to show her the staples center, nokia theater, etc. 

while we were there, we had coffee conversations and strolled around the area talking about whatever and whoever (the way families do). 

i looked up at the multitude of screens and i see advertisements for HAWAII everywhere. it seems like the islands are calling my name. i stood there and smiled as i took the pic of the screen. there's a story behind that smile that unfolded in the midst of my 21 days of #die2self and as soon as i figure out the details, i promise to share it with you guys on here so you can smile along with me too :)

say my name, say my name. ;)

aloha. xoxo.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

sisters, cousins and maple everything.

me. my sister bobbie. and my cousin nina.
i haven't seen my cousin for 8 years! she's visiting from the philippines. 
it's so good to see her again. 
she brought a big bag of ferrero rocher and maple syrup and maple tea (from canada). the tea is delish! its like drinking hot water and sugar! yum.

i love family.