Monday, December 20, 2010

16 and pregnant.

they say she could've been between 13-17 when she got pregnant.

nothing much was said about the emotions that swirled around her when people found out she was pregnant. im sure there was gossip going on within the temple and the townsfolk. self righteous and judgmental people whispering to themselves:
"how dare that child say she is carrying the Messiah! who does she think she is?"
"did you hear about Mary? she says the Holy Spirit got her pregnant. lunatic!"
"what a shame. so young and yet she shows signs of slutty-ness already" 
there were speculations of divorce, of her being adulterous, of her husband showing signs of wanting to leave her. im sure it brought her parents shame that she got "knocked up" before she even got married.

i wonder if there were times where she felt like she was crazy for believing in something that others couldn't even begin to perceive. i also wonder if there were times that she felt lonely and terrified as she carried this Promise child. i know when i was alone and pregnant...i felt all of that and more.

yet mary chose to bear all of it... the weight of her calling and the  problems and frustrations that came along with it. she knew she was pregnant with something that God had personally spoken over her... it was a secret between the both of them, a promise given to her by her God and because of that, she chose to carry this child to full term.

He could've chosen a priestess, a deaconess, a prophetess. He could've chosen an educated woman to bear the Seed of Promise. He could've chosen a pastor's kid or a succesful businesswoman or an older, more mature woman.

 instead He chose her. 
a teenager.
a nobody in the eyes of the world.
she was 16 and pregnant.
and she was chosen to bring forth and bear the Good News.

"The angel went to her and said, “Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you...Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God" - luke 1:28-30

"God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong" 1corinthians 1:27

im so thankful that mary paved the way to be an example of a woman who chose to believe and not doubt. she had child-like faith that pleased God, and because of that, she was favored to be Jesus' mama.

this christmas season, i am choosing to remove doubt and fear. instead... i choose to believe that i am highly favored. i choose to believe in His promises, no matter how impossible it seems.