Wednesday, June 30, 2010

truth without photoshop.


worth 10minutes of your time.


as someone who was sexually abused
for almost a decade of my life.
i could empathize and feel her pain.
but i also relate to the glory of her testimony.

"He makes all things new"

6.30.10 - shore.

the nations on every shore will worship Him.
zephaniah 2:11

oak of righteousness.

"they will be called oaks of righteousness

a planting of the Lord for the display of His splendor."

[isaiah 61:3]

you've let nature do it's work.

and have allowed time to help you grow.

the seeds of dreams have been embedded in your heart.

and your roots dug deep and clung on the Foundation.

the trunk stood through the test of time.

through wind, through water, through storms.

the branches that were once weak have now stretched out.

once limber and fragile, they are now sturdy and strong.

leaves and fruit have blossomed and have given abundant life.

God has planted you to be a safe haven to many far and wide.

He made you to be strong and beautiful.

to display the beauty of His majesty.

He has created you to showcase the beauty of His splendor.

you have become a shelter to many.

a safe place of refuge for others in need.

to the birds that have broken wings.

or those wanting to learn how to fly.

to those finding a new song to sing.

to those looking to belong to a family.

and to those who were looking for a place of rest.

your shade has been an oasis.

and for that we say thank you.

for helping us mend our broken wings.

for helping us find a new song to sing.

for allowing us to belong in your family.

and for teaching us how to fly.

we will be forever grateful.

written by: Patricia

i wrote this poem for my friend Angela. she has been my mentor, smallgroup leader, a confidante and a mother-figure to me for the past 7.5 years. (yep our smallgroup has been meeting that long!) earlier this month she announced that she is retiring from working in ministry and she is now moving on to the next season of her life (she'll be moving away from LA).

though i will miss her, i am truly happy and excited for her. i just wanted to dedicate this poem to honor her. in behalf of our smallgroup, we say thank you. for the time you've sown. for the hugs. the food you've cooked. the shared tears. the prayers prayed. and the laughter and fun. we'll miss you. thanks for inspiring us to dream big. now it's your turn to pursue your dreams. GET IT DONE! we love you.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

6.29.10 eclipse.

twilight fever.

inspire - joni.

she has been a quadriplegic for 43 years.

she is unable to walk. run. dance. skip.

she cant even use her hands the way we use ours.

this woman has written many books, recorded several albums, and had a movie made about her life. she has preached to crowds of thousands of people, way before joyce meyer was preaching. she was able to spearhead several ministries worldwide to help others see hope in their suffering. and now she is even inspiring others at biola university to help people understand about how to reach out to people that have a disability.

in our day and age, people complain if God doesnt come through for them for a job, for a raise, or for not getting the car they prayed for, etc. she has chosen to praise and help others see the goodness of God despite the storms surrounding her... she keeps it real by sharing her pain, but then like David, chooses to keep on praising God, even though she's walked through the valley of the shadow of death.

while everyone is talking about living out their "plan b's"

this woman is living out her plan a... even if to us, it seems that the circumstances that happened in her life would be our plan z.

God has made her shoulders strong to carry the weight of all that has happened in her life.

through it all, her heart has remained so tender to God and she paints a beautiful picture of what it means to have a life surrendered to her King.

Joni Eareckson Tada - your faith is amazing. your life is a great testimony. thank you for inspiring me to keep on loving Him despite setbacks and unwanted circumstances. thank you for being an example of what it means to have tenacious faith. thank you for being the strong woman that you are. i will be praying for healing for you from cancer.

keep on doing what you've been doing for the past 40 years.

your faith is changing the world.

previous inspire post: agnese (mother theresa)

Monday, June 28, 2010

6.28.10 monopolized.

even in monopoly goin broke. LOL!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

6.27.10 - dock.

the bird is sittin' on top of the world.
dock at lake casitas in santa barbara

Saturday, June 26, 2010

6.26.10 lake casitas.

let the morning bring me Word of Your unfailing love. [psalm 143:8]
lake casitas, santa barbara - celebrating father's day with our pops.

Friday, June 25, 2010

6.25.10 chilli.

chilli con camping.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

6.24.10 massage.

The massage chair is calling my name.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

6.23.10 ice blended.

Ice blended drinks with Kelly :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

6.22.10 chococreamfries.

One of my most favorite snacks ever (a rare treat)...

Mcdonalds french fries dipped in a hot fudge sundae.


do you have any weird food quirks?

ruined for life.

at the foot of the cross.

i am...













He took my place.

and because of that.

i have chosen.

to live my life as an offering.

to live. move. and breathe.

with a heart of worship.

for my KING.

Monday, June 21, 2010

6.21.10 tao of pooh.

"While Eeyore frets...

...and Piglet hesitates...

...and Rabbit calculates...

...and Own pontificates...

...Pooh just is."

-benjamin hoff "the tao of pooh."


me and my friend ivonnah had a bet during the NBA Finals game (much like my bet with prudychick. see her blog post here).

ivonnah was rootin' for the celtics and i was rootin' for the lakers (ofcourse). whoever won the bet would be able to write a guest blog post on the "loser's" blog. and since we ALL know what happened last week, i had the privilege of writing a guest post on her blog.

anywhoo, i decided that it would be apropos to write something about basketball since this was what the bet was all about. so here is my take on "6 life lesson from the NBA: what the church can learn from the lakers/celtics finals."

1. HISTORY CAN BE CHANGED. [isaiah 66:8]
these 2 teams have met 12 times in the NBA finals and the celtics have won 9 times against the lakers. history and stats showed favor towards the Celtics winning this series. after the embarrassing loss in 08... the lakers were called "weak and soft". it took this team being humiliated for them to work hard & grow in their "weakness", as well as grow in their strength. and with determination, they were able to change stats and history.

the church has been called "useless" in this day and age. in fact, christians are mostly humiliated in media coverages, calling our stand for purity and life "weak and soft." our teachings have been irrelevant and our lifestyles are a joke because, instead of being an example, we have become hypocritical, hypercritical, and judgmental. we need to study how and where and what we've been doing wrong and right as a body of Christ and see to it that we implement the changes that are needed to be made in order for us to win our family/friends/school/workplace/city/nation back for God.

to read more please click here =]

Sunday, June 20, 2010

6.20.10 Win.

Cheering for my brother-in-law's basketball league. It's the play-offs.

We all got to celebrate at yogurtland after the game :)

Saturday, June 19, 2010

6.19.10 yellow.

You had me at "Yellow".
Bath and Body Works semi-annual sale.
The ONLY time I love going shopping.

Friday, June 18, 2010

6.18.10 tea-zone.

[jars of clay]

not forgotten.

this sunday, we will be celebrating Father's Day. it's kinda weird to say that coz i am a single mother, i've never been married and my son... well he doesn't really know his father.

there will be millions of kids out there who will be just like my son... they are now known as the "fatherless generation". those who don't know where and who their fathers are.

to be honest though, every father's day, there is always a painful sting in my heart that reminds me of the consequences of my actions. i wrote about this 4 years ago...and that sting still feels the same way today. the consequences of stupid things i did before (like choosing to have sex outside of marriage) had a price tag on it...and it's a very high price to pay.

i see the price that is paid... and the price is my son's broken heart. i see it every father's day. i see it when he meets new friends (or even his old friends) and they ask him where or who his daddy is. i see it when he gets that look in his eyes and he hears the question in his head that asks "why did he abandon me? what did i do wrong?"

it's one of the most heartbreaking things you can ever witness... to watch your child deal with a battle like this at such a young age....and know that this is happening because of stupid decisions i allowed myself to do.

it's a good thing though that i serve a God of redemption.
a God of second chances.
a God who chooses to be called "Abba, Father"

and He is so faithful to love on me and my son (seriously, every time my son prays for something...God always seems to make it happen... a dog, a wii, free cars, a place to stay, a DS, shoes, that he gets enrolled in sports, name it...He's answered it) though my son doesn't have an earthly father, He has a Father in heaven who loves him so very much and lavishes His love on him in unmistakable ways. He has shown my son that even if his earthly father didn't chose him, GOD HAS CHOSEN HIM. and because of God's love, my son's heart remains so tender and pure. he chooses to forgive his father, he chooses to live life and see the best in everyone. and though my son may be facing pain, he knows that He is not forgotten, because He has a Heavenly Father who loves him so very much.

this is why, we celebrate Father's Day in our house. because we have the BEST DADDY in the world. He cares for us, loves us, gives us 2nd chances, and He specializes in turning things that were meant to be messy, horrible and ugly to become something beautiful and extraordinary.

  • to the fathers who have blown it: our God is a God of second chances. forgive yourself. it's never too late to ask forgiveness from those you've left behind and hurt
  • to the mothers raising children by themselves: forgive the fathers. forgive yourself. and choose to raise your children to fear and love and serve the Lord by being an example of practicing what you preach.
  • to the children who don't have fathers: you have a Father, and He calls you His own. He longs for you to run into His arms, because even before you were formed in the womb, He knew you. and He longs to wrap you in His arms and lavish His love on you, just like He does to me and my son.

    coz He knows your name,
    He knows your every thought.
    He sees each tear that falls,
    and He hears you when you call.
    You are not forgotten.

happy Father's day weekend everyone!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

6.17.10 back2back.

Oooopps we did it again ;)

Back to back champions!

Sorry celtics, but not in our house!

I love LA!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

6.16.10 sit.

I heart him. :) if only it were this easy to get children to behave and others to behave. ;)

inspire: Agnesë.

because i don't have a computer right now, i can't really type my thoughts on here as much as i would like to (and typing out my thoughts on my crackblackberry is so hard to do).

so instead of leaving this blog without words, i will post short posts on here about people/things/places/circumstances/quotes that inspire me.

my first ever "inspire" post will be about this woman: Agnesë Gonxhe Bojaxhiu.

she chose to live a life of poverty instead of living a life of security. in the end she blessed so many people without having a single cent. this just goes to show that our life is more than how much we make, or what our job title is, how much we've saved, how many books we've written or which board room or conference we've spoken at.

in the end, it's how we give of ourselves everyday, by sharing our time, our hugs, our smile and God's love to others, that really makes a difference in this world.

  • do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.

  • if you cannot feed a hundred people, then just feed one.

  • let us not be satisfied with just giving money. money is not enough. money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them, so spread your love everywhere you go.
thank you mother theresa, for setting an example of what it means to be a disciple of Christ.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

6.15.10 game 6.

Celebrating game 6 by eating this monster! :)

Thanks Tracy!

Go lakers!

Monday, June 14, 2010

6.14.10 hotel confession.


When I check out of a hotel... I usually leave with my bag heavier than when I arrived and checked in.

I remind myself of Ross in one of the episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. (click link to see the episode) when He packed every little thing he found in the hotel room (shampoo, conditioner, lotion, soap, the kleenex box, complimentary water, toothbrush, toothpaste, and yes, even the extra toilet paper) and then some.... Ghetto-fabness all the way. My uber frugal self is showing.

That my friends, is my confession of the night.

Do you have any weird quirks/habits that you like to do?

Sunday, June 13, 2010

6.13.10 fuel.

coffee from a shell gas station. (fuel for my body)

pastor preaching the word of God (fuel for my soul).

coffee + God's word together = nitrous oxide booster for my body and soul =]

Saturday, June 12, 2010

6.12.10 extraordinary.

My favorite place to go to when im in SD is extraordinary desserts. I love love love their desserts. It's so decadent and rich and uber delish... And the ambiance is nice too.

Ofcourse it's kind of pricey but oh my goodness, their cakes are so orgasmically good! :)

If you find yourself in SD, check it out at:

Friday, June 11, 2010

6.11.10 fax

Fax machine. It's been around for quite some time now. But this thing never ceases to amaze me.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

6.10.10 wwJd

Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry
[james 1:18-20 NIV]

I often react the other way around. I am quick to become angry, even quicker to speak and very slow to listen.
I'm trying to teach myself to respond the way Jesus would instead of pounding my fists ready to punch somebody when im aggravated or mad. It's so very hard to do. Dying to yourself is not fun at all.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

6.9.10 enchilada.

My roommate made this last night. She spelled out Lakers made from red pepers. we (my son and I) have now converted their family to become basketball fans. #LosLakers

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

6.8.10 tip-off

NBA Finals Lakers vs. Celtics Game 3

Monday, June 7, 2010

6.7.10 bank.

This is my bank account balance - $10 and something cents. It's been like this since last week and it will stay that way until I get paid on friday. For a single mom, that's quite a frugal lifestyle.... Considering the fact that my son now eats like a horse... (Ok...maybe a growing stallion). This is a reality of most single moms everywhere. When you are the sole provider... The money you make is just barely enough to get by. When you live paycheck to paycheck, you learn how to stretch each dollar like crazy

Before, when my bank account would get this low..or even lower, I would start to panic and worry. I'd begin to think of who to borrow money from. I would get so stressed out and I'd cry myself to sleep.

The funny thing is, God has been so faithful to me everytime I was in need that now I am not even worried. It's coz I know He's gonna take care of me.

He supplies all my needs... because He is Jehovah-Jireh and He is true to His name. And whether in plenty or in lack.... My cup still overflows. And because of that, I rejoice.

Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. - Habakkuk 3:17-19

Sunday, June 6, 2010

6.6.10 - yuck.

this baby shower game is all sorts of gross.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

6.5.10 - faith.

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen;
it gives us assurance about things we cannot see. [hebrews 11:1 nlt]

Friday, June 4, 2010

6.4.10 - friday night.

My Friday night consists of pajamas, tea and these..... :)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

His embrace.

guest post written by @pruddychick

I've lived in Arizona since I was three and by default/common law or something I'm pretty much a native. Patricia lives in LA. I'm not a basketball (or any sports) fan, but by proxy of living in Phoenix, I root for the Suns, and naturally Patricia roots for the Lakers. So Patricia & I had a friendly little bet going over the Sun vs. Lakers Play-Offs. We made a bet that the winner of the series gets to guest blog on the other's site. Now you're probably asking how are you guest blogging on her site when the Suns lost? Answer :).

So here we go:

I've realized I'm tense. Not dense. Tense.

I grind my teeth at night. I sleep with my shoulders scrunched up. I wake up often with head and neckaches from said teeth grinding, shoulder scrunching and teeth clenching. I brush my teeth with a little too much pressure (I buy a new toothbrush about every month cause I mangle mine up so bad).

I'm having to learn to relax. To chill. To
forcibly make myself not be tense. I lay in bed at night and just let go.

If I'm honest with myself my tension probably has a lot to do with wanting to control my surroundings. Wanting to carry the load of my life. Jesus tells us to rest. To be still. Have peace. Turning over that load to him means I don't have to carry it. Which means I don't have to lay in bed and fall asleep a giant wad of tension.

I need to rest in Him.

this is such a timely word from prudence. i, as of late, have found myself fighting to rest in His embrace. my blog and twitter for the most part have been kind of empty from words and noise because i've been trying my best to remain quiet in Him. wanting to take in all that He's doing, prioritizing the important things, and trying hard to drown certain noises that can come from life itself, as well as other people's thoughts and voices.... desperately asking Him to empty me of myself, my mind, my thoughts so that my cup will overflow of Him...and only Him.

it's such a struggle... coz everything around me says DO SOMETHING. MOVE. GO HERE. DO THAT. RUN HERE. SERVE THERE. isn't it sad the the older we get, the harder it is for us to teach ourselves to relax. we need to learn (and force ourselves) to be more like mary and sit and worship at His feet and less like martha who's always concerned about how things need to get done. like prudy said, we need to teach ourselves to rest in Him. He's calling your name with arms wide open, i hope and pray that you find yourself resting in His embrace this weekend!

As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" "Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." [luke 10:38-43]

Therefore humble yourselves [demote, lower yourselves in your own estimation] under the mighty hand of God, that in due time He may exalt you, Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. [1peter 5:6-7]

6.3.10 - purple and yellow.

ice cream = laker colors.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

6.2.10 praise night.

Gettin' my praise on. :) I love to praise my King.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

6.1.10 moose.

I used to not be an "ice cream eating person"... But this moose track denali extreme flavor is changing that really fast.

Somebody please HELP me! I need a moose track intervention or pretty soon im gonna look like a moose if I dont stop eating this stuff! O_o

sent via Patricia's crackberry