Saturday, March 20, 2010

all things new.

today is the first day of spring.
meaning yesterday was the last day of winter.

last night i ended my extended fast from all things rice, sweet & meat. (i know that probably doesn't sound like much to others, but you have to understand, this asian-sweet-toothed-carnivore loves her rice, chocolates and meat.) i didn't realize this in the beginning, but the timing of my fast could not have ended more perfectly. i ended during the last day of winter. it's such a beautiful symbol of what is to come in this new season of my life. my life these past 7.5 years has been a lot like fall and winter. what seemed to be a loooooong season of testing and trials and seeing death to certain prayers, hopes, dreams and aspirations... was apparently just a time of preparation to receive even more things for this new season of my life.

spring = new life, new beginnings.
rebirth. regrowth. renew.

rebirth: yes i am born-again. but that is not what i mean by re-birth. during this time, i had asked God to reveal to me what it truly means to be born into His kingdom... what it means to be a co-heir of Christ... what it really means to be His child. because of that, i had to make a conscious effort to let go of the "servant" mentality (Moses) and take on the role of "son-ship" (Jesus). the awesome revelation of sonship went from "head knowledge" to a "heart acknowledge"... and i feel like i had been reborn all over again, but this time with a greater understanding of knowing who i am as God's daughter. and it has been so amazing to rediscover the truths in His Word regarding being a child of God.

regrowth: a few weeks ago, alece (who is an awesome writer) wrote a post asking her readers about what spring means to them...

my answer/comment to her question was: spring is nature's way of saying... things weren't dead... they were just hidden from you for a season.

then my friend tori (who is a great writer as well), wrote a post a few days ago about "the hope of spring" and it resonated so much with the comment that i had made on alece's blog regarding spring and "things" that we're hidden for a while.

things like: the prayers that appear to remain unanswered. the dreams that seem to be dying right before our eyes. those desires that seem to have no hope. no life. no growth. God gives us the season of spring to remind us that He has the capability to resurrect anything that may seem "dead" to us. that re-growth and new life can happen, even with the most impossible situations. that our perception of death is so limited. what we see as the end, is only the beginning of something in His eyes. (see: Jesus' resurrection)

i ended my fast by having dinner with my sisters and my mother... which was such a HUGE step towards our family reconciliation... because we talked about a LOT of stuff. and we didn't even argue once (which is so unheard of). something that seemed so impossible to have 6 months ago... has finally happened. that right there is such a great testimony of how He can turn a situation around in a day.

He reminded me to keep on watering those seeds that were sown, keep on praying, keep on seeking, keep on being faithful in the small things, because He promises to reward us in full, with fruit that will grow in its proper season... and that those fruits will remain.

And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint. [galatians 6:9]

renew: these past 40 days, i challenged myself to fall in love with the Lover of my soul all over again. i don't ever want to reach the point where im too "familiar" with Him that i take Him, His love and His Word for granted. during my fast, i spent time just falling in love with my King once again, like a bride who was renewing her vows to her Husband, promising to serve Him, be submissive to Him and to fall more and more in love with Him. and in the process of that...i feel like i have renewed vision, renewed hope, renewed life... with such a fresh outlook for this next season of my life.

i share this with you to encourage those of you who feel like your dreams have been dying, to those whose prayers have remained unanswered after all these years, to those who feel hopeless and have no vigor in life. He who is seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." Revelations 21:5

so i take that Word...
and trust that He is making everything new for me
and i welcome spring into my life .
even if i haven't seen things in full bloom...
i KNOW i have been reborn.
i KNOW there has been regrowth.
i KNOW i have been renewed.
and i pray that He will make all things new for you too.

Happy Spring my dear friends =)