Wednesday, March 31, 2010

3.31.10 sick

Sick in bed for the past 2 days. Thank God for TV and the online community for keeping me "company" and saving me from boredom.

mothering the fatherless.

for the past 2 days, i've been sick in bed (not sure if it's the stomach flu or if i ate something bad). these past 2 days, instead of resting, my mind has been worried. not so much because i've been sick... but because being sick means i'm missing work... which means i'm not getting paid... which means less money to pay the bills. and i NEED to feel better soon coz i MUST get back to work.

this, my friends, is part of the life of being a single mother. this is the reality that we face everyday.

she [@flowerdust] blogged about the fatherless generation today. statistics say: There are 27 million children in America growing up without fathers. the reality is... behind the 27 million fatherless children are moms just like me... working HARD to make a living so we can raise our children, make ends meet, keep a roof over our heads and feed our family...

this is one of my BIGGEST PASSIONS. i want to be a voice of single mothers to the christian community. to make people aware of the reality we face daily. you see the fatherless generation as a growing "epidemic"... we carry that burden on our shoulders daily. my questions is: what is the church's answer to this problem?

you see, there are some single moms that i consider "lucky/blessed" in a sense, if the father is involved in the child's life (whether it's through alimony, child-support, or even if the father acknowledges the child & talks to them). then there are single mothers like me... who have been going at it solo (no help at all) . those moms are either widowed or left pregnant alone. there are also single moms by choice. it doesn't matter how they became a single mother though. it's still the same hardship, still the same stress, the same pain.

we have learned to toughen ourselves up, just so we can lead our family. we have learned to strengthen our shoulders, so we can carry the burden of nourishing, loving, caring and being the sole provider. we have learned to care more for others than ourselves, because so much is asked from us on a daily basis.

i consider myself extremely blessed, because i know God and i am so rooted in Him and His Word that i have faith and hope in His promises. i also have my family, friends and a spiritual family to support me and help me, especially in case of an emergency.

but my heart goes out to the single moms that don't have what i have. imagine those who have no support around them. imagine those who are struggling and have no hope. imagine how they are raising their children. how can they be a role model for their children if they can't even fix themselves?

christians, i ask you, don't just pray for the children of this fatherless generation. pray for the mothers who are raising them as well. they NEED your prayers. they NEED your help.

i write this to make you aware... look out for the single mothers in your community. don't even wait for single parents to ask for your help. in whatever way you can, whether it's through prayer, buying them some groceries, babysitting, treating the moms out to something fun, taking them out for coffee. teach their kids something for free or just be there as a shoulder to lean on... do what you can... coz they need all the break, help and support they can get.

thank you - in behalf of all of us single mothers.

Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you. [james 1:27]

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

3.30.10 electrolytes

Being sick is NO FUN. Downin' gatorade, powerade and pedialyte the whole day coz everytime I eat, I throw it back up =/ *blech*

Monday, March 29, 2010

3.29.10 - I hate...

...Doing laundry. And folding laundry.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

unmet agenda.

they fell on their knees and worshipped Him... laying down palm branches on His feet... they proclaimed Him King.

the same people that welcomed Him into Jerusalem... were going to be the same people that would shout "crucify Him" a few days later.

they had an agenda behind their praise. they wanted Him to be King that moment and take the reign and rule that day.

He had other plans. He knew what that passage meant. He knew what was about to happen. He knew He needed to suffer and die the way He did, coz He had bigger plans. He saw the bigger picture. Jerusalem wanted Him to be King of their city. Jesus knew that this passage meant something bigger than just saving jerusalem. it was going to save the world.

the people that we're praising Him though, had no idea what was in store for the next few days. and when He didn't meet their plans and He didnt follow through with their agenda... one by one, people left Him... one by one they rejected Him.

because He didn't meet their self made dreams.
because He did things differently.
because He didn't do what they expected Him to do.
they stopped praising.
instead they cursed at Him and turned bitter.

i pray that God will keep my heart tender towards Him always. i pray that even if my own personal agendas and dreams don't happen the way i want them to, i will still continue to bow down and worship and praise Him. because He is worthy. even if He doesn't do things the way i want Him to. even if He chooses to not answer my prayers.

i know He sees the big picture. i only see the present circumstance. He sees my tomorrow.... i only see today. He sees future generations... i only see my present need.

and i will choose to praise and trust... because He will always know better than I do.

3.28.10 sundayfunday.

6 kids and 80 degree weather in spring = fun water works!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

3.27.10 swing.

the child in me wanted to jump on that trampoline and sit on the swing.

the adult in me wanted to clean and do chores.

i chose to listen to the child in me and sit on the swing...and swing my heart out (I didnt know if the trampoline could handle my "lumps & bumps"). LOL

Im glad I didnt listen to the adult in me... I didnt regret it at all :)

Friday, March 26, 2010

3.26.10 SceneIt.

Laughter, Scene It, Oreos & Ice cream = good times with the kids & sister and mr shooz & mrs shooz :)

when i grow up.

When i grow up i want to be.....

before you became jaded. before you were hurt by others, slapped by reality, confused by experiences, disheartened by dead dreams..... what did you want to be?

now that you're grown? do you still have the same dream? if not, what is your dream and what's stopping you from going after it? and if you are living your dream.... give the rest of us some advice on how to go after it.

i go first...

when i was: six, i wanted to be a heart surgeon. when i was 13, a flight attendant, when i was 18 i wanted to run after my grandfather's foot steps and go into politics.

when i grow up: i want to be the best mother i can be. i desire to work in ministry, counsel the hurt, the abused, the broken & encourage His Bride and lead them to the heart of Christ. i want to preach & teach God's Word and author books. 

whats stopping me: reality. having to work in an office as my day job to make ends meet as a single mother. also embracing the season that i am in (my time has not yet come)... but still believing that one day my reality and my dreams will collide.

what about you? what do you want to be when you grow up?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

3.25.10 - hug

I hate it when the dog is on any of our beds. That's why I got a doggie bed, so that he never climbs on our beds... But my son doesnt listen... Nor does he seem to mind at all. He loves having bambam on his bed. How do you tell your son "NO - dont do that" when you walk into the room and see this?

skidrow, promkids and africa.

in my previous post... i had mentioned something about the Body of Christ being united in love.

well today, i present to you a few ways to show some love - to the body and to the community as well. the need of people in the world and the people around us is so great that sometimes it can get a bit overwhelming to think about. sometimes it's hard to think that an individuals like us can make a change....



go do some spring cleaning (which will benefit you, not just others) and give your lightly used clothes and dresses away to #1 and #2 (see below) or skip starbucks for a couple of days and donate to #3.

1. Hope on Skid Row
we've done this a few times before so you already know how it goes. if not see here: part 1 and part 2. my church was able to raise money to buy enough food and care packets to be able to give to the same amount of people that we did during my hope on skid row birthday event. so we don't need financial donations BUT we still need YOU.

ways that you can help:
  • what they need: hope, Jesus, food and your lightly used clothes and shoes and blankets
  • we need: people to help me buy food, pack the food, people to drive down there and share hope to the people of skid row.
WHEN: April 17, 2010 (Saturday)
TIME: 8:00 AM
PLACE: SKID ROW (meeting place to be determined)

if you would like more information or if you're from LA and would like to donate clothes, please leave me a comment or email me at ricianne (at) ricianne (dot) com or message me at twitter and facebook and i'll let you know about the specifics and locations.

2. Project Prom
my friend danielle, who runs the ministry called the gate called be-u-ti-ful, a women's ministry from her church called the living room, will be volunteering for an event called "Project Prom" on May 15. they are going to be styling between 40-60 orphan teenage girls. There will be a "boutique" set up for them to go shopping and feel special for that day.

ways that you can help:
  • DRESSES (up to size 24), ACCESSORIES, SHOES, STRAPLESS BRAS or PURSES that you would like to donate it would be greatly appreciated
  • if you are a hair stylist, make up artist, can paint a nail or simply don't scare people when you walk out the door, or have a heart to help in any way - then we need you =)
for those of you who would like to drop off clothes or give donations for this event please mail donations or drop off donations at:

The Living Room (put Project Prom on the memo line)
Mail to: 10703 White Oak Ave
Granada Hills, Ca 91344
drop off times are: Tuesday-Saturday 10:30am- 6:30pm
for more info email me @ ricianne (at) ricianne (dot) com

1 in every 4 south africans are HIV positive. what are we going to do about it? my blogger/twitter friend alece - is part of this organization called thrive africa. she tweeted this the other day... and because one of my passion is to be able to do whatever i can to help others with their dreams, i wanted to take this opportunity to help her fulfill this dream of hers:

thrive africa has a God-sized goal because God has given them a God-sized vision - ways that you can help:

Come on...what are you waiting for? stop reading and go dig through your closet and find some lightly used clothes, shoes, blankets. take out those bridesmaids dresses that you've secretly been wanting to give away. trust me, someone else will put that to good use. =] your closet will have more space and you will make a difference by putting a smile on someone's face.


But just as you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us —see that you also excel in this grace of giving. 2 Corinthians 8:7

"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' "He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.' Matthew 25: 40 & 45

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

3.24.10 MarchMadness.

March madness! That's los angeles for ya! Our bi-polar weather.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

3.23.10 - priceless.

Starbucks black coffee & cake $5 // chicken quesadilla $8 // Some alone time for lunch that my boss paid for = priceless. #simplethings

united in love.

the Body of Christ.
it is a strangely beautiful thing.

God likens His Bride, the church, to the human body. each body part is different. each part has a function to do. and when each part concentrates on its God-given task, it will make the entire body work properly. each body part has a focus and the task is God ordained. imagine the feet telling the ear to walk. or eyes telling the hands to taste. or telling the heart to produce bile. how weird would that be?

we often forget to realize that we are a body that's made up of different parts. we often love to compare, contrast, criticize, blame, judge, talk against and destroy other parts of the ONE BODY that we belong to.

it's sad to say that a lot of Christians do this.
i am guilty of being one of "those christians."

churches will talk smack about other churches, christians against other christians. we do that to the very same people that go to the church that we do. we do that even to our closest friends and family. we somehow feel superior, thinking we have the right to do these things.... we somehow think that we are better than others.

as a parent, i dont want my child to treat any of his cousins, relatives, friends and strangers in a bad way. the way he treats other people is a clear reflection of my parenting skills and how i raise him. yet, if im honest with myself, i know that i am a hypocrite because i treat others, especially those in the family of believers in a way that does not give God glory. is this the kind of reflection of God that i want the world to see?

i often wonder what our Father feels like to see His children living the way we do... doing "church" the way we do. i bet it pains Him to see us live this way.

before Jesus died to sacrifice Himself for us, He prayed a prayer to His Father... and part of His prayer said this: "I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me." John 17:202-23

One of Jesus' last request before He died was that His believers would be united. that we would be ONE. it means that this subject is very close to His heart.

after reading this, i was so convicted of the lousy job i've done in the past to show love to His Body. i earlier i said that: the way my son treats other people is a clear reflection of my parenting skills and how i raise him. i wonder what kind of reflection of God we are showing to the world with how we, fellow Christians, treat each other? it's a sobering thing to think about.

it is my desire to be a reflection of God's mercy, grace and love to this broken world, but especially to His broken Body. i ask and i pray that He will allow my heart to comprehend the capability He has put in us to LOVE the same way He chooses to love us. to love mercifully. to love gracefully. to love respectfully. to love unceasingly. to love others like He loves me. i pray that i will be a vessel that will help His Body to fulfill His prayer request - that we will all be united in love - so all men will know that we belong to Him - and by doing so...we'll be able to change the world.

"by this all men will know that you are my disciples: if you love one another" [john 13:35]

Monday, March 22, 2010

3.22.10 - othello.

Me and the kid playing othello.
im winning - ofcourse :D

Sunday, March 21, 2010

3.21.10 - DimSumYum

Lunch with my mom at empress pavillion in china town.
I love me some dimsum.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

3.20.10 - baking.

Getting my color on!
I love LA :)

all things new.

today is the first day of spring.
meaning yesterday was the last day of winter.

last night i ended my extended fast from all things rice, sweet & meat. (i know that probably doesn't sound like much to others, but you have to understand, this asian-sweet-toothed-carnivore loves her rice, chocolates and meat.) i didn't realize this in the beginning, but the timing of my fast could not have ended more perfectly. i ended during the last day of winter. it's such a beautiful symbol of what is to come in this new season of my life. my life these past 7.5 years has been a lot like fall and winter. what seemed to be a loooooong season of testing and trials and seeing death to certain prayers, hopes, dreams and aspirations... was apparently just a time of preparation to receive even more things for this new season of my life.

spring = new life, new beginnings.
rebirth. regrowth. renew.

rebirth: yes i am born-again. but that is not what i mean by re-birth. during this time, i had asked God to reveal to me what it truly means to be born into His kingdom... what it means to be a co-heir of Christ... what it really means to be His child. because of that, i had to make a conscious effort to let go of the "servant" mentality (Moses) and take on the role of "son-ship" (Jesus). the awesome revelation of sonship went from "head knowledge" to a "heart acknowledge"... and i feel like i had been reborn all over again, but this time with a greater understanding of knowing who i am as God's daughter. and it has been so amazing to rediscover the truths in His Word regarding being a child of God.

regrowth: a few weeks ago, alece (who is an awesome writer) wrote a post asking her readers about what spring means to them...

my answer/comment to her question was: spring is nature's way of saying... things weren't dead... they were just hidden from you for a season.

then my friend tori (who is a great writer as well), wrote a post a few days ago about "the hope of spring" and it resonated so much with the comment that i had made on alece's blog regarding spring and "things" that we're hidden for a while.

things like: the prayers that appear to remain unanswered. the dreams that seem to be dying right before our eyes. those desires that seem to have no hope. no life. no growth. God gives us the season of spring to remind us that He has the capability to resurrect anything that may seem "dead" to us. that re-growth and new life can happen, even with the most impossible situations. that our perception of death is so limited. what we see as the end, is only the beginning of something in His eyes. (see: Jesus' resurrection)

i ended my fast by having dinner with my sisters and my mother... which was such a HUGE step towards our family reconciliation... because we talked about a LOT of stuff. and we didn't even argue once (which is so unheard of). something that seemed so impossible to have 6 months ago... has finally happened. that right there is such a great testimony of how He can turn a situation around in a day.

He reminded me to keep on watering those seeds that were sown, keep on praying, keep on seeking, keep on being faithful in the small things, because He promises to reward us in full, with fruit that will grow in its proper season... and that those fruits will remain.

And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint. [galatians 6:9]

renew: these past 40 days, i challenged myself to fall in love with the Lover of my soul all over again. i don't ever want to reach the point where im too "familiar" with Him that i take Him, His love and His Word for granted. during my fast, i spent time just falling in love with my King once again, like a bride who was renewing her vows to her Husband, promising to serve Him, be submissive to Him and to fall more and more in love with Him. and in the process of that...i feel like i have renewed vision, renewed hope, renewed life... with such a fresh outlook for this next season of my life.

i share this with you to encourage those of you who feel like your dreams have been dying, to those whose prayers have remained unanswered after all these years, to those who feel hopeless and have no vigor in life. He who is seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." Revelations 21:5

so i take that Word...
and trust that He is making everything new for me
and i welcome spring into my life .
even if i haven't seen things in full bloom...
i KNOW i have been reborn.
i KNOW there has been regrowth.
i KNOW i have been renewed.
and i pray that He will make all things new for you too.

Happy Spring my dear friends =)

Friday, March 19, 2010

3.19.10 - chocodipped

Choco-dipped strawberries. YUM!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

3.18.10 - myfeet

"I need a pig here! I love a warm pig belly for my aching feet" - red queen
// except that he isn't exactly a pig, but he is warm ;)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

3.17.10 ten

Season 10

shamrocks, green beer and jesus.

today we celebrate st. patrick's day.

our generation has butchered this "so-called-holiday", reducing this man's legacy to guzzling green beer, having everyone carry shamrocks for luck and wearing the color green so we don't get pinched.

what a lot of people don't know or have chosen to forget is that this man was an extreme radical for Jesus.

he was kidnapped. turned into a slave. met God in a dream. went back to his native land. he then met the Holy Trinity, in which his life was radically changed. he studied about his faith. and at the right time, he went back to the very land that had enslaved him and told everyone he met about Jesus by using the shamrock as a symbol to explain the 3-in-1 God that He served. he didn't let his past dictate who he was. instead his past painted a clear picture of where his ministry was going to be. he went back to the very nation that had once enslaved him and showed them what it meant to have freedom in Christ.

a few vital lessons we can learn from st. patrick:
1. we need to love Christ. radically. passionately. wholeheartedly. steadfastly.
2. God WILL call us back to proclaim Christ and His freedom to the very things/people that once enslaved us.
3. God can use one person to change a nation. i really believe that.

because of his passion....he had discipled ireland.
because of his hunger for the Truth, he brought revival to ireland and the rest of europe.
because of his love for Christ... he changed the world.

i want to be like that.

just like st. patrick... i will love Christ wholeheartedly. i will proclaim about His love and freedom and the message of the Cross. and i will choose to love everyone around me enough to change the world.

i will be known as st. patricia ;)

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 corinthians 2:9

Christ beside me, Christ before me, Christ behind me, Christ within me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me. - st. patrick

Before I was humiliated I was like a stone that lies in deep mud, and He who is mighty came and in His compassion raised me up and exalted me very high and placed me on the top of the wall. - st patrick

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

3.16.10 slipNslide

Slip and slide in the middle of march :) yes... los angeles decided to skip spring and bring on summer instead!

spring forward.

i do not like "spring forward".

the thought of having to adjust your clock, fixing your schedule and "losing an hour" of sleep irritates me. i was totally being catty about it on my FB statuses and twitter. i didn't like adjusting my time and my schedule. i didn't like the thought of change. i didn't really have a choice though... so i just adjusted my clock and went with the flow. i went to work monday morning wishing i had my hour back.

but 2 days after spring forward...
i can say that i actually do like it.

the reason for change is now evident. the adjusting had to happen before i saw the benefits. i can now say that the change was so worth it. i love that the sun is still out when i go home from work. i love that there's more light out, which means more time to play with my son out in the yard or i have more time to walk my dog. i love how it's not always dark and gloomy out. i love how everything around me is blooming and coming to life. (though the allergies do suck).

i realized that, though it was hard at first...
in the end... the change benefited me.

this made me think about how much this truth is so applicable in life. that we must do whatever is necessary to adjust and change with the seasons. it may annoy us, it may affect our "regularly scheduled program". it may even cause us some pain and frustration...and we may not see the great things that are in store for us...but if we obey and don't fight change, if we go with the flow and do whatever that needs to be done to adjust things in us and around us... in the end, those changes will be to our advantage...

it will cause us to move forward...
our own lives will have more light and more life...
so that we may share it to others as well.

Monday, March 15, 2010

3.15.10 - despise

I despise long lines at the DMV

Sunday, March 14, 2010

3.14.10 - inBloom

cherry blossoms in bloom

Saturday, March 13, 2010

3.13.10 - team manny.

Reppin' the philippines :) this is how we do ;) #GoPacquiao

Friday, March 12, 2010

3.12.10 iChoose

iChoose time :)

Friday nights are game nights for me and my son. i choose to spend time with him & make friday night all about him. We play a board games and watch all the tv he wants. =)

"to a child LOVE is spelled TIME"

Thursday, March 11, 2010

3.11.10 - magazines.

Tonight I am chilling and reading magazines :) Im starting to like this whole REST thing. Im usually never home early on weeknights.

team manny.

uhhmmm i know die hard twilight fans will hate me... but that's okay. i still got mad love for the twilight saga

i just couldn't help but laugh when i saw these pics. there's a pacquiao vs. clottey fight on saturday.

 i say Go #TeamManny

*these pictures belong to their rightful owners...they aren't mine

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

3.10.10 - sweet

Bad idea! They should keep this out of reach! #liquidcrack

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

3.9.10 - give and get

i volunteered today at a center to spend time with children who had AIDS or were children of parents who had AIDS.

i came with an agenda (the give a day, get a day disney program) and i left with such a grateful heart that i wanted to come back and take my son with me just to be able to spend time with these kids.

i told this one kid - jesse - who was probably around the same age as my son - that the star on his hat was there to remind him that his smile can brighten anyone's dark night... just like the stars do.

he had the biggest smile on his face when i said this and said thanks for the hat and gave me a hug.

my heart melted. kids are amazing. =]

i came to give a little of my time to get a disney ticket...and i left receiving more than i thought i would. i left receiving a big smile that brightened my dark night.

disney should've titled it - 
"give a day... and get SO MUCH MORE than a disney ticket back."

Monday, March 8, 2010

3.8.10 eye.

Eye see you.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

3.7.10 - surprise.

surprise birthday party for my sister and friend - R 

Saturday, March 6, 2010

3.6.10 no stress.

Magnet quote - God sends no stress that chocolate and prayer cannot handle. :)