Sunday, February 28, 2010

2.28.10 unpack


aaand now it's time to unpack and get settled into my new home.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

2.27.10 - garden

My sister & bro-in-law has a pretty lil garden in their back porch :)
i like to stand there and just stare. it's very zen-y.

Friday, February 26, 2010

2.26.10 - turtle

This turtle (squirt from nemo) holds the keys to my old apartment. Tomorrow I'll hand these keys in and I'll have keys to our new place.
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Thursday, February 25, 2010

2.25.10 liquid.


Coffee.veggiejuice.soup.
That's how I roll. 
#40days

dying to live.


worshiping God with outstretched hands

looks a lot like a silhouette of a cross.

a cross is a picture of death. of pain. of the end.

that is happens when i worship.

in worship, i give Him praise and thanksgiving because He is worthy

but it is also a picture of surrender.

of outstretched hands saying "take me".

this life is not my own.

in worship, i choose to die to myself...daily.

my own wants. my own desires. my own goals. my own dreams.

when i die to me...i find that it is the only time i learn how to truly live.

He died in order that i may have LIFE and have it abundantly.

what an amazing God i serve.

the proper response to such a Love

is to come to the end of myself daily.

to completely empty me of myself,

and fill myself up with Him

till my cup overflows.

*pic taken from homespashop

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

2.24.10 warm taho


Warm taho during a cold, rainy day

sobering truth.

"Each of us shall give an account of himself to God" [romans14:12]


it's a sobering Truth.

every deed.

every action.

every thought.

every spoken word.

whether my motives were good or bad.

whether done selfishly or selflessly.

to know that i will have to face my Master and give a full report of EVERYTHING i've done while i was alive.

i will have to give an account of my life in front of everyone in heaven.

this truth puts such a holy and healthy fear in me.

to test my motives daily (in word, action and thought)

that everything i do from here on should done out of purity and love.


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

2.23.10 whatever


I didnt have anything else to take so I took a pic of this whatever moment.

Monday, February 22, 2010

2.22.10 - beans.


For breakfast, lunch and dinner. *sigh* I miss eating meat!

go.

yesterday we had baptisms at church.
6 people publicly affirmed their faith in Christ.
4 of those are women i know personally.

3 of them are close to my sister

2 of those women go to my small group
(btw...i love building life together with these women....just wanted you to know that)

1 of them remind me so much of me (i swear she's like a mini-me)

and another one of those women i have been praying for for years now. even since i heard that she was my younger sisters roommate back in 2006 i started praying for her, 4 years later...she is now in love with Jesus.

just a few things that really hit me yesterday while all these things were going on:

1. DONT EVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF PRAYER.
-pray for people's salvation...pray for breakthrough... pray for healing. even if it takes years... keep on praying. coz HE HEARS. and He is always faithful to do according what His Word says. [acts 16:31; james 5:16]

2. GO...MAKE DISCIPLES. REACH OUT and POUR YOUR LIVES OUT FOR PEOPLE.
- it's not a choice to do...it's a command given. before He left the earth, this was the last thing He told His disciples. Our Commander-In-Chief said to GO...so if you're not making disciples, you're not doing your job. reach out to others. build friendships. be sincere. and don't water down God's Word. [matthew 28:19-20]

3. YOUR PAST PAINTS A PICTURE OF YOUR MINISTRY.
- my mini-me...well she reminds me so much of ME that i felt like i was staring of a picture of me 9 years ago. i had the same look - short hair, tattoos, piercings. i had the same attitude - strong, tough, carefree, fun-loving. i also know the hurt and why she is the way she is...even if i haven't heard her full storY. you know why? it's coz my past was staring at me face to face.... and i absolutely LOVED IT. it's coz i know of God's power to transform and change lives and turn it around for His glory. to others...her look could've come off as intimidating... to me - i saw a heart of gold. the reason why is because i've been there. i've done all of that. and i know how much God has got me through... and i KNOW God will use her to reach out to even more people just like us... to be a walking, living testimony of God's power to change lives.

4. GOD WILL USE YOU.
- my sister b, invited 3 out of the 6 people that got baptized yesterday. if asked by many, b really isn't one of those people who's super involved in church. in fact she doesn't ever sugar-coat where she is in her walk with God....she has struggles and she's very open about it... but it's never stopped her from reaching out to her friends. and because of her honesty.. and her love for her friends... and her persistence to invite them to church... they now love Jesus as well.

even if her walk in Christ isn't that stable...she has brought more people to church this year alone than most of the people i know. just goes to show...don't ever underestimate those around you at church. the person sitting right next to you might be the billy graham of this next generation. whoever you are, whatever your walk is like with Christ, even if you've fallen, even if you've struggled - GOD WILL USE YOU... don't let the world tell you otherwise. just make yourself available... [1samuel 16:7]

i was soooo excited yesterday. THIS IS WHAT I LIVE FOR! for me to worship and love God with my life and to see other people's lives changed! when people pray the salvation prayer and get baptized... we should be like heaven and celebrate and partaaaaaay because sheep that were once lost are now found in God's arms. i love the great commission!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

2.21.10 go.


This is what I love for - to go and make disciples of all nations.. Baptizing them... [Matthew 28:19-20] :) I love the great commision

Saturday, February 20, 2010

2.20.10 piggy


Smile, piggy smile :) #lechon at the grand opening party of my friend's carshop :)

Friday, February 19, 2010

2.19.10 - got rings?


My boss bought my son a shirt today. In front it says "got rings?" at the back it showns 15 of them & says "we do" :) #GoLakers

in ONE day.

i wrote this the other day on my post give it up:
  • Reality can tell me: i dont have a place to live in
  • i will choose to say: He is my shelter & my refuge.
  • Reality can tell me: the situation i am in is stressful & worrysome
  • i will choose to say: be anxious for nothing, do not worry
  • Reality can tell me: i am alone in carrying this weight.
  • i will choose to say: cast all cares to Him because He cares for me.
  • Reality can tell me: there is no provision as of the moment
  • i will choose to say: He is my Provider. My Jehovah Jireh. The provision is already there.
Yesterday the provision came. - i now have a place to live at.

in ONE day.... something changed.

yes, God can turn a situation around in a day.

time and time again, He has shown & proven to me that He is able.

the problem is not about His faithfulness and ability to answer our prayers...

the real problem & the test of time is the attitude of our hearts while waiting for Him to answer us.

when things aren't going our way... when life doesn't go as planned....

will our attitudes be full of faith speaking life to circumstances and situations, even if it seems like it's never going to happen and things aren't getting better?

or will our hearts be full of doubt, unbelief, and fear?

it's so much easier to walk by sight.

the harder route is to make a choice to daily walk by faith.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

2.18.10 dots


Polka dotted.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

2.17.10 shut it.


For lent... I will teach myself to shut it! For more info read: http://bit.ly/a1HoYm

give it up.

Lent starts today.

today lots of people will be observing this tradition by fasting and giving up meat, sweets, alchohol, etc, etc. some will observe this by giving up going on social media networks such as facebook/twitter/blogging for the next 6 weeks and using that time to seek God. i really want to participate with commemorating this tradition but had a bit of a dilemma as to what i was going to give up.

i started my "fasting season" a lil earlier than most people. prompted by several dreams i've had in the past year and certain painful situations that have come up in my life recently, i made a decision to undergo an extended fast a couple of weeks back. during this time... i decided to give up certain things that i love (such as eating YUMMY food), and showing God my desperation to be emptied of myself so that i may be full of Him.

i thought about maybe giving up my online social media life. but since my laptop is dead... it hasn't really been much of a distraction for me coz i dont have the patience to stalk people on my blackberry.

soooo....as i was praying, searching within me to see what i could possibly give up and sacrifice during this lenten season.... this came up...

my reality right now is that people close to me sort of left me hanging with this current situation of mine... which i'm sure they didn't mean to do... but it certainly feels that way at times. at the expense of someone else's happiness, certain sacrifices had to be made and one of those sacrifices was that we had to suddenly move and give up our apartment & look for a new place to live in with only 2 weeks notice! sooo i've been in the middle of packing and right now i only have 9 days to find a new place to stay... which is a bit hard coz i have a strict budget on rent that i can afford. if i don't find a place to stay...me and my son and my dog will be crashing in people's couches.

so right now there's enough stress in that situation aside from the everyday working & teaching & stuff that's enough to keep a single mama insane. so the pressure of that + me not eating the stuff i love eating + being utterly annoyed with some people = equals a cranky patricia on most days. my patience has been short. i've been worried. i've been extremely quick to answer. and i let my emotions get the better of me.

and i don't wanna be like that...especially to my son. i can sacrifice a lot of external things but what's the point of giving up certain things if my attitude stanks?!?!

so for lent....i will be giving up MY RIGHT TO SPEAK MY MIND and the NASTY ATTITUDE OF SPEAKING NEGATIVELY... meaning i won't say anything that is contrary to His Word and what He says about me and my situation and i wont say anything based on my ever-so-strong-opinions. i know this will help make me a better person and it will help others around me as well.
  • Reality can tell me: i dont have a place to live in
  • i will choose to say: He is my shelter & my refuge.
  • Reality can tell me: the situation i am in is stressful & worrysome
  • i will choose to say: be anxious for nothing, do not worry
  • Reality can tell me: i am alone in carrying this weight.
  • i will choose to say: cast all cares to Him because He cares for me.
  • Reality can tell me: there is no provision as of the moment
  • i will choose to say: He is my Provider. My Jehovah Jireh. The provision is already there.
  • Reality can tell me: i am tired. i need strength. i need encouragement.
  • i will choose to say: i can do ALL things through Him who gives me strength. He gives me joy and peace.
  • Reality can tell me: my family has consistently been the cause of pain my whole life.
  • i will choose to say: Though my father & mother forsake me, He will never.
  • Reality can tell me: this person im talking to is so freaking annoying, they think they know everything
  • i will choose to say: nothing...and smile.
so from now till easter sunday....for 46 days...i will try to NOT say anything negative... to myself or anyone i talk to.... i will try not say anything that will contradict His word. even when it hurts... even when im in pain... even when the sarcastic side of me is wanting so bad to say something back.... I.WILL.DIE.TO.MYSELF.

oh dear... i know THIS WILL HURT ME (in a good way i suppose)....but i also know this will be hard... but i guess it's not fasting unless you're giving up something that hurts. and anyone who knows me know how i LOVE to speak my mind. so to take a little part in the suffering of Christ (who chose to say NOTHING while being beaten and murdered) and give up my freedom of speaking my opinions this lenten season will be the most interesting fast i will have to undergo thus far.

please help keep me accountable and pray for me during this time. i know my mouth. i know my mind. i know myself... and i need all the grace and strength and self control to finish strong. so please be praying for me. and also please...to those of you that are my sandpaper folk that rub me the wrong way and those of you that know how to push my buttons... please stay very very far away from me from now till easter. LOL

thanks. let the season of lent begin.....

mark 15:3 - 5 The chief priests accused him of many things. So again Pilate asked him, "Aren't you going to answer? See how many things they are accusing you of." But Jesus still made no reply, and Pilate was amazed.

james 3: 9-11 Sometimes it praises our Lord and Father, and sometimes it curses those who have been made in the image of God. And so blessing and cursing come pouring out of the same mouth. Surely, my brothers and sisters, this is not right! Does a spring of water bubble out with both fresh water and bitter water?


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

2.16.10 puppylove


In 10 days... this puppy love will end :( bambam & paris will not be living together anymore #puppydivorcesucks

Monday, February 15, 2010

2.15.10 - tomyum


Favorite thai soup :)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

2.14.10 date


Me and my valentines date @ yogurtland :) #yum!

in the middle of it all.

i've been EXTREMELY busy and tired this past week. if it isn't obvious from my daily pics, i'm currently packing and moving right now.

i've been given 2 weeks to get out of my apartment and look for a new place to stay (looooong crazy story that isn't even my fault...this move is so unexpected and i was so surprised to find out about this).

anyway, my life has been revolved around packing and sorting and packing and packing some more as well as trying to look for a new place to stay and dealing with my parent's divorce. that's why i haven't really had the time to sit and write my heart out.

in the middle of all this crazy-almost-chaotic things that have happened though, i did a guest blog post for valentine's day. hopefully you can check it out.

happy LOVE day everyone. =] 
celebrate life. celebrate love.

P.S. please be praying for grace and strength for me during this time. i need it so bad. thanks.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

2.13.10 breathe


Taking a breather from all the packing. [Exodus20:8]
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Friday, February 12, 2010

2.12.10 so very...


....tired from packing.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

2.11.10 friends


Friends keeping me company while I go through the ordeal of packing :/

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

2.10.10 crap


So much crap to go through :( packing is the pits.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

2.9.10 - mess


I absolutely hate packing, weeding through stuff. My room is a mess. Blech!

Monday, February 8, 2010

2.8.10 - the blessing


MUST READ BOOK
whether you're single, married, divorced, a child,
a parent, a grandparent, an uncle, an aunt. 
It's WRITTEN FOR YOU! :)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

2.7.10 - superbowl


By myself watching the superbowl. I have NO IDEA what's going on. I just watch the commercials :)

Saturday, February 6, 2010

2.6.10 - cousins.


me and my cousins & nephews spending a gloomy day 
at portos doing what we do best - eating & talking!
 =] i <3 family!

Friday, February 5, 2010

2.5.10 - first fridays.


dani singing her heart out at First Fridays. CHECK IT -  (www.lafirstfridays.net) 

Thursday, February 4, 2010

tired.

i need You so desperately right now.
stress & problems have been hiting me from all sides.
my shoulders crumble under the weight and the pressure.

i. am. tired.

and there are needs.
a need for a parent's hug. a need for a constant friend.
a need to be a strong mother. a strong sister. a strong child.
a need for a new shelter. a need for a roof over our heads.
a need for family reconciliation.
a need for peace. a need for rest and sleep.
a need for holy energy to work.
a need for supernatural joy.

though i try to hold it back, i find myself drowning in tears.

but even though it's been hard
i will CHOOSE to rejoice in Your love.

because i will not let my circumstances
dictate my emotions and my faith in You.

i know You see, i know You know.
i know You are right here.
and i know You have already provided.
and i want to thank You beforehand.

so i'll cast my cares upon You.
for it is too heavy for me to bear.
You've got the whole world in Your hands
and i know You are able to take care of this. of us. of me.

in the midst of the storm is where Your faithfulness shines the most.

2.4.10 - lovecuffs.



The random things one find at a local 7-11 store o_O

2.3.10 - life


Our smallgroup material - one month to live :) inspiring the women in my group to live life to the full everyday and to DREAM BIG DREAMS.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

2.2.10 - inHisPresence


Prayer meeting and Worship @ in His presence church at woodland hills.

words.

selfishness.
pride.
money.
DIVORCE.

fighting.
shouting.
HEART ACHE.

pain.
blaming game.
alimony.
finances.
LIES.LIES.LIES.
tears.
abuse.
adultery.
broken.
confused.
torture.
hurt.
annoyed.
mad.

fend for yourself children.
irresponsible.
GRIEVED.
separation.
1st marriage.
2nd marriage.
wounded.
step parents.
stinging.
anxiety.

CHILDREN SUFFER THE MOST.

despite all of these there is:

forgiveness.
trust in God's love.
redemption.
hope.
security in who i am because of WHO He is.
the Loving Father, the Empathizing Son, the Comforting Spirit
the ONE who gives me peace in the midst of chaotic pain.


My father and mother walked out and left me,
but God took me in (adopted me, made me His).
[psalm 27:10]




Monday, February 1, 2010

2.1.10 - living room



Every Monday nights - dreamers journey. Love being with people who dream BIG dreams for God.