Sunday, January 31, 2010

1.31.10 next gen


The clan's next generation :)

Saturday, January 30, 2010

1.30.10 - backyardigans



A family friend bought this house. We spent the WHOLE day pulling out weeds, raking dead leaves & cutting down mini-trees on his backyard. #tired

goodbye dear friend.


my car RAN over my laptop today.

and I WAS DRIVING THE CAR.

i know STUPID right?

i had put my son's skateboard in the car, my sister's bags, my dog (who was in a bag) and a picnic table. i wanted to make sure to put in my laptop bag LAST coz it was the most delicate thing on my "things to bring list".
well, after putting everything in, i totally forgot that my laptop was still out. i started the car, waited for a few minutes and then put my car on reverse.

then i heard a loud CRRRAAAAAAACCCCCKKKKK!

i KNEW immediately what it was.

i opened it and i knew my laptop had no hope.

=( im SO SAD.

i had written 2 rough draft chapters of my book already.

i had journal entries in there that i haven't printed out.

i had pictures in there since last year that i haven't backed up on my external hard drive.

plus im a single mama who doesnt have the extra $$$ to buy another laptop or any computer for that matter.

i was PISSED off. i was in the car throwing a fit....calling myself stupid, cussing up a storm underneath my breath... wanting SOOOOOO BAD to take back the past 5 minutes so that i could have my laptop again.


then i heard the voice within me say : "you've been writing about not worrying these past few days, why are you so stressed out right now? it's a material thing...it's replacable....you'll be okay. NO STRESS."

*BAM* - struck me right in the heart.

having a foot in your mouth doesn't taste too good. ugggh.

woooooosaaaaaah. breathe. woooooosaaaaaahhh


goodbye dear laptop. it was nice knowing you. thanks for keeping me company during those lonely nights. thanks for letting me use you and abuse you. sorry for not taking care of you the way i should've. if i could turn back time, i would've done so much more to show you how much i care. i will surely miss you. love, your pathetic owner who ran over you with her car. =(

Friday, January 29, 2010

1.29.10 silly sis



Me and my sister "K" making silly faces :)

favorite sin (part2).

last night, as i was thinking about what to write for the continuation of my previous post, my son suddenly interrupted my train of thought and said:

"im HUNGRY mom. i wanna eat."

i just looked at him with a blank stare.

mind you, i had already fed him dinner at this point. in my head i was thinking "what's WRONG with you child? we just ate dinner. here i am washing the dishes & cleaning the kitchen and you have the AUDACITY to come up to me and say you're hungry again?? it's as if you don't worry about anything else in the world except your grumbling stomach."

as i was thinking this...he was already helping himself & getting into our fridge/pantry (i wasn't really paying attention anymore) and made himself something to eat...then went back to the room to play. JUST LIKE THAT. no cares. no worries. no stress.

after thinking that.... i found myself pondering about what just happened
  • my son FAITH in me to take care of his basic needs & doesn't worry about it. he just has to tell me what he needs and he knows it will be provided for.
  • he knows that his mom has food in the fridge for him to eat at any time of the day.
  • he trusts me to clothe him, feed him & give him shelter, drive him around, etc.
  • he casts his cares on me coz he knows mys shoulders are strong enough to carry them
  • and if he WANTS something that is beyond a basic need (like toys, a wii, a DSi, etc) - he just needs to ask me & wait for my answer (which, more often that not, is a YES). he just has to give me a lil bit of time to put things together (i.e. money, timing) and make it work out & do my best to give him what he asked for.
then i realized...God expects the same from us...
because He does the same for us. and so much more.

He is our Daddy. We need not worry about where we are going to get our food, or where we are getting the money to pay our bills. just like my son did..all we have to do is say "Dad, im hungry" and then tap into His fridge (the Word of God) and draw out the resources that we need there to get our needs met.

"Don't bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn't think of such a thing. You're at least decent to your own children. So don't you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?" matthew 7:9-11 msg

worrying shows that we don't trust our Daddy. us worrying and stressing is a slap to His face. coz if a fallen human being like me is able to provide for everything my son needs...what more our Heavenly Father - who is able to provide our needs & even give the deepest desires of our heart.

so if your find yourself worrying about a need or a certain situation, remember:

all we have to do is ask our Daddy and then trust and wait.

Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. - Philippians 4:6-7 (msg)

Our Daddy is Jehovah Jireh.


continuation of favorite sin (part 3) coming soon!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

1.28.10 - best friend.



Watching my son & his "best friend" play & run outside :) #LifesSimplePleasures

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

our favorite sin (part 1).


our favorite sin = WORRYING.

i searched the word "worry" in different translations of the bible and i found it so ironic that the words "DO NOT" precedes the word worry in almost all of the verses, in any translation.

i wonder, why it is then, that everyone - especially christians, seem to think that worrying is "okay" & acceptable.

we worry about a lot of things, even if we won't admit it. we worry about our work (or lack thereof), our bills, our bank accounts, our weight, our health, our spouses, our salary, our pets, our parents, our children, our future, our gadgets, our looks. we worry about sickness, we worry if we ever will get married, have more children, or if we married the "right person".

we worry when the end of the world will be, we even worry about our sports team or favorite tv show. sometimes we can even take it one notch higher in a more "spiritual level" and worry about what God is going to do in our lives in the future...we worry if He's ever going to be able to fulfill the desires we have in our hearts and make our dreams come true

WE. ARE. A. PEOPLE. WHO. LOVE. TO. WORRY.

YET, the bible clearly says: DO NOT WORRY!


we forget that worrying is a sin... because it means we do not fully trust in God. we doubt His ability to provide for us and to take care of us and those we love. we choose to make our current circumstances & problems bigger than He is.

worrying leads to STRESS, which is now the #1 health problem in our society today. stress causes heart problems, diabetes, stroke, heart attacks, hypertension, body pains, gastro-intestinal problems, etc. etc. it also causes so much strain in our relationships, which, in the long haul will cause marriages to be broken or build rifts in families that cause so much emotinal damage.

S.T.R.E.S.S. I.S. K.I.L.L.I.N.G. U.S. S.L.OW.L.Y.

so why then do we allow this killer in our homes,
in our hearts, in our lives, in our family?
why do we allow worry to overcome us?
and what does the bible say about how to overcome this killer?

to be continued tomorrow.... our favorite sin (part2)

1.27.10 RIP turtle



Cody (his little turtle) has gone to turtle heaven be with zac (his other turtle that died last year & dash, his turtle that died 4yrs ago).

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

1.26.10 - socks suck.



Socks with missing pairs suck! Booooo!!! I hate doing laundry!

Monday, January 25, 2010

1.25.10 - last supper.


Only in los angeles!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

1.24.10 - grub




Boston market - I love sweet potatoes! Buy a meal & kids eat free promo! Oh yeah!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

1.23.10 - patao wedding

the line up of bridesmaids for the bonifacio-patao nuptial. im the 3rd from the left.

Friday, January 22, 2010

1.22.10 sick dog.


Bambam has diarrhea poor dog...but YUCK coz i have to clean up after all his poo!!

priceless treasure.

for the past 2 days, this poor guy has had diarrhea. he's been pooping all over the place and it's been a pain in his butt (and on mine coz i'm the one cleaning all his crap.) yesterday, my son was starting to get worried about bambam. he came up to me looking sad and asked what else we could do for him.


i said...."baby, when you were sick last week, i had used up all my extra money to buy your meds. i canot afford to pay anymore vet bills & meds for bambam... we'll do all that we can to keep him dehydrated. but you have to do your part and pray for him."

my son looked at me....then turned around...and started pacing back and forth in the room...

and then LAID HIS HAND ON THE DOG and said "the Bible says that God heals ALL our diseases. God i pray that you would heal bambam.....(and he went on to say his prayer)"

i sat there listening.
IN. AWE.

it's the very first time i've ever heard him speak the Word of God out with such authority.
i couldn't help but smile as i thought of this Word:

Sons are heritage from the Lord, children a reward from Him.
Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are sons born in one's youth.
Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.
-psalm 127:3-5

i am extremely privileged to be raising a 2nd generation prayer warrior.
My God has blessed me with such a priceless treasure.

*he asks that everyone pls pray for bambam by the way =)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

1.21.10 - lakers vs. cavs.

watching the lakers and the cavs during a wedding rehearsal dinner party.

laker fan MUCH?

a ray of light.

HAITI

pic taken from www.eveningstar.co.uk RT'd from @flowerdust
in the midst of a heartbreaking disaster...
this child's smile gives so much us hope.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

1.20.10



Paper cranes all grouped up :)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

1.19.10 - rainbow



Some of the most beautiful things in life only come after a storm. There is a season for everything :) [Gen9 & Ecc3]

Monday, January 18, 2010

1.18.10 - origami



Folding origami paper cranes for a wedding this saturday. :)

i have a dream.

today is martin luther king day.

to commemorate him and his life, i read several websites last night regarding his life, his family, his dream, his passion and was thoroughly inspired.

this man had a dream.... a dream that was selfless. a dream that involved the betterment of society. a dream that was motivated out of love and hope and freedom. a dream that was God given and had given God glory. a dream worthy of sharing to the next generation. his dream made such a huge impact that millions of others had benefited from his dream.

i look at the dreams of my generation today and i am heartbroken. everyone i know has dreams and aspirations. but most of those dreams are for selfish gain.

to have more money and become RICH.
to be famous and well-known.
to make it BIG as an actor/model/scriptwriter in hollywood.
to have a house on the hills, drive a benz, marry a beautiful person.
to be a well-known director, pastor, author, speaker, photographer, dancer, etc.
to be a wealthy businessman/woman.

IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT US. OURSELVES.

WHAT WE WANT. WHAT WE NEED.

VERY SELFISH. VERY GREEDY.

everyone i know has fallen into that trap.
i've fallen into that trap many times as well.

i realized that i had to check my heart and see the motivation behind my dreams. i don't want to be greedy. i don't want to be selfish. i don't want fame for myself. i want other people to benefit from my dreams. i want to be able to die and say that my dreams made a lasting impact, not just in my life but for the next generation as well. i want God to get ALL the glory for my dreams.

dear friends, it's time we start to think about our dreams & ask ourselves these questions:

is your dream God given? is your dream motivated to give love & hope to others? will your dream give God ALL the glory? is your dream motivated for selfish gain? are you willing to die for your dream to come true? is your dream worthy be heard about and shared to the next generation? will your dream make this world a better place?
if the answer is a NO to any of those questions,
do whatever is necessary and make adjustments to your dreams
so that it becomes a YES =)

i hope and pray that my generation will be a generation of  unselfish dreamers who dream  BIG DREAMS about making this world a better place for our sons and daughters.

"I submit to you that if a man hasn't discovered something he will die for, he isn't fit to live." - Martin Luther King Jr.


Sunday, January 17, 2010

1.17.10 - lazysunday

Lying down on my couch, feet up, relaxing, listening to the rain while staring at the beautiful gray sky. I love this weather!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

1.16.10 - teaching


Teaching @ women's class regarding addiction & Christ's power to free us from it.
God is awesome!

Friday, January 15, 2010

1.15.10 - playing dice.

Playing yahtzee with my son @ my sister's house

Thursday, January 14, 2010

1.14.10 - fuzzysocks


I love comfy, soft, fuzzy winter socks. :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

1.13.10 - glow.

At night when all the world is asleep... These lights a glow and keep me company.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

1.12.10 haiti

i am a “failed” prayer warrior at this moment.

you see, i have the "gift" of prophetic intercession…meaning when i pray... i get random insights that God whispers in my heart regarding things, places, and people. the weight of this gift is sometimes overwhelming (in a good and bad way), but i feel very honored that God has trusted me with this gift. the gift of prophetic intercession means that you must have "spiritual shoulders" strong enough to stand in the gap and carry other people's burdens on your prayer list, as well as praying for your own & those closest to you.

my shoulders failed me.

last week, i started our annual prayer and fasting and during my time of prayer, i really felt like God impressed in my heart the word “earthquake"…and prompted me to "start praying”. i thought to myself…"if i told anyone this…no one is going to believe me". i didn’t take it seriously. i thought i was just "hearing things." i prayed for the earthquake once. i said God please don’t let it be here in LA. how selfish of me right?

today when i saw all the tweets on twitter about the earthquake in haiti...my eyes welled up with tears. when i saw the aftermath of the earthquake....the death toll, the children without parents, the faces of people hurt, pained, confused....my heart was completely broken.

i didn't obey. i dont know what would've happened had i spent time on my knees crying out to God in prayer for His mercy. i don't know how many lives would've been spared if i took the time to listen to Him. i was busy with my own agenda...that i didn't hear Him tell Me about His.

He loves His people. He was calling His daughter to pray for the people there. because my son was sick, i was so consumed with my own little world that i forgot to see the bigger world out there.

that broke me so much.

but it taught me HUGE a lesson.

the next time, when i hear Him nudging my heart, i need to make sure that i wont second guess it…now i know it’s always better to just obey, to listen to the still, small voice, even if i feel like no one else will listen…
....because i know that He always does.


Monday, January 11, 2010

1.11.10 - the real me.


#realme - no make up, no facade, all the flaws - with only 3 hrs of sleep since yesterday coz i've been taking care of a sick son....just washed my face, about ready to rest. i ♥ the real me [ps139:17] :::: check out the story behind #REALME's @ http://bit.ly/4X1ndw

Sunday, January 10, 2010

1.10.2010 - nursemom

A kiss for the sick boy :( he still has a fever.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

1.9.2010. sick


Lil man sick with a fever. =(

Friday, January 8, 2010

365 - 1.8.10. - goodies.


Goodies from the philippines :) I love my country

i got my team pacquiao t-shirt & other shirts, dried mangoes, sampaloc, champoy, cowlabel, choco crunchies, milk candy, a bag, pearl earrings & bracelets, and lots more! YEY!!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

365 - 1.7.2010 sisters

Me & my sisters b & k hanging out.

i love them.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

365 - 1.6.2010

1st praise night of the year. had victorious lead us for worship,
the groovaloos performed and rice broocks shared the word. Fun night

if i were a boy.

yesterday i posted this comment on facebook:

random thought: would I be given more opportunities & chances to preach & teach God's word & write books if I was a man? or is it because I'm a woman that I feel like I have to fight & 'work harder' for this dream to come true. (to make it even harder, im an umarried-single mom who didn't graduate college). that is all. carry on

i got a LOT of interesting feedbacks from comments & private messages. there were some who gave information, some who gave theological reasoning behind it, there were some who even commented and shared their past hurts regarding this topic.

i'm not one to sugar coat the truth and this thing i know is for sure....it is so much HARDER for women to try to go into ministry and assume a leadership role...especially for single women. i know a lot of women who are in leadership positions, but in reality they are there coz they "married into it"...meaning their husbands are pastors or leaders as well. im not be-little-ling the fact that they are pastor's wives. that in itself is such a high calling from God. my question is if they we're single... would they have been given that same "title or role" or is it only because they are married to the pastors that they have it?

i know of very few women who actually co-pastor their church with their husbands... meaning they are pastors too, not just pastor's wives. they preach & teach even on sundays & not just on "mother's day". what i don't see a lot of though, is single women that are given the chance to speak & preach on the pulpit. there are some out there....but it's not a common sight to see. i only know a handful of women who have the title "pastor or reverend" & it's because they have studied, have a master or doctorate degree in theology or something like that, and they are now "entitled" if i may say, to that have that role. men on the other hand, can hear a call from God...and go into ministry right away, whether or not they have the degree to back it up.

i wonder why that is so.

it seems like women have to be able to prove themselves more for them to gain the trust of other's that God has called them into ministry.

while pondering on this question... God reminded me of this passage:

When they came back from the tomb, they told all these things to the Eleven and to all the others. It was Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and the others with them who told this to the apostles. But they did not believe the women, because their words seemed to them like nonsense. - Luke 24:9-11

it happened 2000 years ago...and it's still happening today. it's so much harder to believe & accept women as preachers/teachers (outside of sunday school & women's bible studies)....the disciples did it before.... and there are still disciples that are doing it today....and YET Jesus used "women" to be the very 1st preachers of the good news...and proved their preaching to be true. He isn't sexist at all =]

then i was reminded of this scripture:

Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world’s eyes or powerful or wealthy when God called you. Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important. As a result, no one can ever boast in the presence of God. - 1corinthians 1:26-29

in the end this is what i ended up saying:

Love the insights that people have shared here & even private messages sent. I guess it's 'safe' to say that it is harder for women to get into ministry...mostly because christianity is very 'patriarchal'...which is very understandable... But it's not impossible coz it has been done before. Throughout the years there have been many women missionaries, teachers & preachers (like: mary who gave birth to the Good News, mary magdalene who 1st preached the good news, corrie ten boom, lisa bevere, elisabeth elliot, joyce meyer, etc) that have impacted the world & still took care of their home.... It maybe harder but im thankful nothing is impossible with God...this is why I continue to have hope & hold on to this dream coz I KNOW WITH FULL ASSURANCE that it will happen one day :)

it's gonna be hard work and it's gonna take a lot of prayer... but i know i'll see this dream come to pass one day. to you other women out there....don't be afraid to dream and don't be afraid to share your dream. Jesus wants to use you as a light to the world, in whatever arena you find yourself in (whether its in the home, if you're a nurse, a teacher, a businesswoman, an actress, a waitress, or if you want to go into ministry too)

....and He wants all those God-breathed dreams to come true, probably more than you do. so continue to trust Him and have Hope, because He who promises is faithful. always.

i will be dreaming along with you.


Tuesday, January 5, 2010

365 - 1.5.10 - lovin' the bed


My boss gave my dog this bed yesterday. it was her "christmas gift" for him. He obviously loves it a lot! He usually sleeps with his tummy on the floor...but i saw him this morning sleeping like this :)

Monday, January 4, 2010

365 - 1.4.10 - bazooka


child-like imagination is such a wonder to have.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

365 - 1.3.10 - strike a pose.


bambam posing for his "mama" - using my new camera ( a canon sd1200) that i got for my 30th birthday/christmas as a gift for myself.

DREAM BIG.

as i spent time in prayer, trying to figure out what my theme would be for this year....i felt like God impressed in my heart that this year is my year to DREAM BIG.

dream big dreams for me but most importantly, for other people as well.

it's as if God wants me to see through His eyes and see people as the "finished product", you know the way He sees us, and not their current situation or personality.

He wants me to get to know the people He has brought into my life, to know the dreams He has put in their hearts....and has even challenged me to go as far as praying for people's dreams, encouraging them & helping them in any way i can.

as i prayed about this theme...i realized that these are the very things that makes a leader in the kingdom of God. a minister's heart should have the capability of loving people, believing the best in people and supporting and launching them out into their God given dreams, destiny and abilities....just like Jesus did.

Jesus knew his disciples. He saw they had so much more potential in them. he loved them, taught them, prayed for them & encouraged them. then he walked with them and launched them into their God given destinies - being world renowned authors, mothers, preachers, speakers, evangelists, doctors, historians, worshippers, misionaries, businessmen & women. He did this 2000 years ago. He still does this today.

The life He lived was motivated by loving others.

The ministry was built because of that love.

if i learn to live motivated by loving Him & loving others daily -
my dream will give birth on it's own.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

365 - 1.2.10

Christian taking a break from snowboarding @ mountain high....he decides to throw snowballs at me.

*to follow: more pics & a blog about this wonderful time i had with him.

Friday, January 1, 2010

365 - 1.1.10

so i started this Flickr - 365 days picture project of mine last year but failed mid-march coz i got too lazy to upload a picture everyday. here is my attempt to try this again... this time it will be a bit easier since i can now upload pics from my phone onto flickr.

in this project, i'm going to "photocument" (a word i made up meaning photograph & document) my entire year by taking one or two pictures a day & posting them on flickr & if i have the chance, here on my blog as well. i will be adding a description of the story behind the picture. i am hoping that i'll be able to be more consistent with this yea'rs project (unlike last year). so to start my 1st photocument for 2010...here is my 1st picture:

every year for the past 5 years, me and my son celebrate NYE/NY by having a contest - seeing who can stay up the longest & be awake to see the 1st sunrise of the year. this was me @ 4:07 am. i was super sleepy but i wanted to win the constest so bad coz i only won once.