Monday, October 26, 2009


to watch this concert has been a part of my to-do list (wish list) for years...

and last night it was fulfilled...(thanks to my brother in law who hooked me up w/ the tix)

concert was phenomenal.

it was worth EVERY penny.

bono = uh-ma-zing song writer!

black eyed peas opening act was great.

slash surprised everyone by performing sweet child of mine.

this was probably the best semi-praise & worship concert i've ever attended.

bono got 97,000 people + youtube viewers to sing "Amazing Grace" with him.

i believe that was a powerful moment....

i dont care what people think of bono & his religious or political views.

he's probably doing more of God's mandate than the next pastor who talks & preaches about God's love but has never helped the poor, the needy, or the hurting.
paul said: It’s true that some are preaching out of jealousy and rivalry. But others preach about Christ with pure motives. They preach because they love me, for they know I have been appointed to defend the Good News. Those others do not have pure motives as they preach about Christ. They preach with selfish ambition, not sincerely, intending to make my chains more painful to me. But that doesn’t matter. Whether their motives are false or genuine, the message about Christ is being preached either way, so I rejoice. And I will continue to rejoice. [philippians 1:15-18]

as long as Christ is preached.... it's all good baby!

be jealous that you weren't there. coz you missed out. SERIOUSLY!
alien-like stage...

traffic SUCKED...but still... it was worth it

eating dirty dogs while waiting for traffic to subside. YUM!

"Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass"

Friday, October 23, 2009


you see all these faces? i see them. in fact i see most of their little pictures every day. some of them i know personally (meaning they are my friends in "real" life)... but most of them i dont. i have no clue who they are, what they really look like, where they are from, where they grew up... BUT the weird thing is... i can tell u a lil bit about each of them & their personality even if i don't know them at all.

you see...i spend a few minutes everyday reading their thoughts, raves, rants, desires, humor, dreams, frustrations, what-to-do's, beliefs, likes, dislikes, etc. etc. they are the people i follow on twitter. the strange thing about this twitter phase i'm in is that i'm normally paranoid and i do not trust strangers.... (ask my closest friends & they will tell you) so the fact that i like twitter is actually WEIRD. but i do. in fact, i can say that i've "found" some really nice, very real, super funny & cool people on twitter (though not all), who i've never met in real life...and some of them i've now welcomed into my facebook world... (because facebook is a lil' bit more "personal" than twitter). they are now who i refer to as "tweetarts" =P

you gotta love the digital world. belonging to an online community has its weirdness but it also has its perks. my "tweetarts"...they actually pray when i ask for prayers, they answer when you have questions, they share their life stories in their blogs, they offer their time to chat when you tweet frustration.... they share your passions (whether its Jesus, food, music, sarcasm, lakers, etc).

though they are strangers... we share common interests that brought us together. some of them i now consider "my online friends". some of these people ask me how i am more than my "real-life" friends do. plus i've found some of the most "real" christians on twitter who are not afraid of sharing their "dirt & ugliness"... and not mask it with an "im fine-hallelujah" front. so authentic. so inspiring. so if you're looking for people to "tweet at"... check out those pretty faces on top... they're a pretty good online community to belong to...

i know i've said this before.... but there are days when i think that blogging, facebook & twitter is from the devil coz it's a major time waster/stealer.... LOL! but this day is not one of them. instead i think of the online community as a wonderful tool to bring strangers & people together from different backgrounds & it gives people a chance to just "be".

i realize that all of us (whatever background, belief, race, sex, age) want to belong. because just like me & everybody else, all of us want to belong & to be heard... some more than others (YES talking about you). we have an innate desire to have relationships & build with other people... there's something in all of us that wants to connect & communicate with others. it's how human beings are wired...because no man is an island. we were made to have relationships. having people around us (whether in real life or online) is vital for our sanity.

what's even more vital is to answer the deep longing in our heart about to WHO belong to. we were made to have a relationship with the One who knows us best. the One who created us. the One in whose arms we always belong to. see no amount of friends, family & online community will take the place of following & belonging to Jesus. coz in Him you're never rejected... you're never alone. in Him we are always "accepted in the Beloved."

so my #followfriday this friday is to check out all my "tweetarts" & i highly suggest you follow Jesus coz He's the best #followfriday recommendation i will ever have.

plus if you follow Him... He will always follow you back =)

tweet tweet. have a great weekend.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

beautiful sky.

it's rainy & chilly here in los angeles. i hear people all around me complain about the weather being gloomy. i actually like it...coz gloomy weather makes me happy & i wish it would last longer....coz rain in LA means snow in the mountains & snow in the mountains = snowboarding!

what is your favorite kind of weather?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


free food. bbq ribs.

just the other day i tweeted about wanting to eat ribs & a few days after i got it..FOR FREE! YEY!

Sunday, October 11, 2009


you see those cards in front of me (those red, mustard, light blue & green lands).??... well i owned those....but now i am in bankrupt & i had to sell them again. i lost because i landed in st. charles TWICE and i hate to pay hotel fees & i had no savings coz i went on a land shopping spree.... to make it son is winning...

aaaahhhhh....IM A LOSER ...i think i need to join a dave ramsey class.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


yes. an arm pillow & a snuggie. a single lady's "MUST HAVES" during cold winter nights.... LMBO!!#christmaswishlist =]

Monday, October 5, 2009

born again - again.

a night of praise & worship turned into a night of deep healing for many people. i felt a nudge in my heart getting me ready to "pray in front" that night. i get very nervous every time i have to speak on stage, but i knew that this prayer would be different from other prayers. i was scared but i stood up and obeyed that nudge.

we were praying for the neglected. the abandoned. for the abused. for the fatherless.

all of which i was. and more.

i stood up on the side of the stage, watching as the intimate room gathered together, seeing people pouring out love and praying for each other. seeing tears stream from people's eyes broke my heart and i caught myself crying with them. most everyone in that room sympathized with them. i empathized. i KNEW how it felt.

i heard a whisper in my heart say to me... "you've been there once know how that pain feels... you know the torment, the nightmares, the shame, the feeling of death in your soul... it's time for you to share what happened to you so they know that healing and freedom is possible in Me."

i was just supposed to pray. i was NOT ready for that. but He knew otherwise. it required for me to be vulnerable. i was intimidated with the pastors that were on stage and everyone else that were watching & listening. thoughts began to rush in my head. who was i? i have no formal college degree. a rebellious high school drop out. i had NOTHING to my name. all i had was my story to tell and God's love to share.

but i knew i had to obey. nervous...i took the mic and shared my brief testimony about the abuse that happened in my life and told to everyone about having hope in God, His power to heal even the most painful parts in your memory... the power of forgiveness & His power to make ALL THINGS NEW.

i didn't really remember a lot of what i said. i just opened my mouth and words began to flow out. the one thing that i remembered though was the look in those peoples' eyes. i will never forget the look of pain in their eyes that somehow turned hopeful because they heard that healing & redemption & forgiveness was possible from someone who has been through it.

after i shared and prayed... i got off the stage with a deeper level of respect and awe to the God that i serve.
  • *if you would've asked me 15 years ago while i was cutting myself if there was a purpose for my life, i would've said no.
  • *if you would've asked me 10 years ago if my heart was capable of feeling, i would've said no because i've taught myself to feel numb.
  • *if you ask me the day i was left by myself, 1 month pregnant, left to raise a child by myself, that one day i would be the strong single mom that i am today, i would've said no.
there are many things that i thought WOULD NEVER happen but because of God's grace and mercy and love, He took what had been painful trials & tests and turned it into a testimony.... i knew that was true before....but for the first time in my life it had become a reality...because for the first time ever, my story was used as a means for others to receive healing and give Him glory .the pain i felt was not wasted....but it had a purpose... and the hope that i saw in people's eyes made all the pain i've experience WORTH it... he has indeed turned my mourning into joyful dancing.

days after and my heart still swells with overwhelming joy accompanied with holy fear. i now have a different outlook regarding life's pains and trials. i now have a deeper reverence for God. i am extremely humbled that He chose to use me to share His love for others that night. i am soooooo grateful.

for years i asked & prayed for Him to make the dreams that He put in my heart come to pass. i had a taste of that for the first time last sunday and it has broken me like never before. in the words of a *good friend of mine... i felt like i was "born again - again". it's like i've given birth to something that i've cradled in my womb for quite a while & i've seen my baby for the first time...and i am soooo in love with the Lover of my soul...the One who conceived these dreams in me.... and i feel so unworthy to carry this baby... but i know that it was given to me. and i must take care of it because He has entrusted me with such a holy calling.

i also feel like i have a renewed sense of purpose & passion in my life that i haven't felt for a really long time. a crying out in my soul to reach out to those that are hurting, because there are soooo many people out there who need to hear about His love.

i feel like He's defined & detailed the picture that He has painted as the story of my life. and what once a dirty canvas, with blotted ink that made no sense, is now a picture of hope, healing & restoration of a redeemed soul created by the Master Painter Himself.

and i am in awe of this Loving Creator who has given me a crown of beauty instead ashes and has put a trumpet in my soul to declare the sound of freedom and victory in Him.

He is TRULY worthy of all praise.

my dear friend, don't underestimate the power of your story. don't underestimate the God that can bring you through the storm and turn things around for His glory. weeping may last for a night but He promies you that joy will come in the morning. we ALL have a story to tell. and your story will be used to give hope and joy to others who need it and bring Him glory. don't be afraid to share it. =)

friend is *amanda mikko

Thursday, October 1, 2009

tales from twitter.

so what if i tweet a LOT???

i realized that i actually like condensing my thoughts into 140 characters coz its easier than writing my heart out constantly. but i also realized because of that, i've been neglecting my blog and writing my book.

there are days that i'm fully convinced that facebook & twitter are from the devil. i swear.... coz its a major time waster/stealer.

but i know what the devil has meant for harm, God will turn around for good.... so i decided that i will just post random tweets / twitpics / thoughts from my twitter adventures called "tales from twitter".... so that my blog will still feel like it is loved.