Wednesday, January 7, 2009

a letter for you.

dear child,

i watch you and i am so amazed at how much you've grown. you grow stronger and smarter everyday. i see you as you talk with your friends, sit alone reading that book, or watch tv amused at the technology that is right before your eyes. i hear you when you are hurting and you cry. as a parent, i feel your pain, probably even much more than you because no parent ever wants to withhold anything to the one they love the most. i want to be able to give all that you ask for, but i also know that this would do you more harm than good at this time and so i choose to wait for the proper time till i answer your wants and whims.

i know that what i can give you for the moment i suffice enough for the day - which is a roof over your head, food on your table and people who love you dearly. i know you long for a *new toy, a new best friend who will keep you company, a new school, more money, cooler things.* i am more than able to give you things, but i also know that those things that you long for aren't what you really need to get by in life. as a parent, i know that your character is what will make or break you and so i teach you, through life's circumstances, the importance of being a person of your word, the importance of integrity and obedience, of faith, of love, joy and hope. these things will be the very foundations that will catapult you to become a greater person that you already are.

i, more than anyone in this world, want to see you become all that you can be. you were shaped and formed in me, and a part of me lives in you. for you to live your life in the fullest capacity is my dream come true. child, you will get there, step by step, day by day. i see you so excited, as you tell me about your future plans and dreams, not knowing that even before you share them to me, i've alreay envisioned you that way and even more. i know what you're capable of doing...and i also know your weaknesses. and so as one who has more experience in life, i try to help you see where you can grow before i am able to allow you to do more things.

it pains me when i know i've been doing all i can to make you feel how much i love you...and yet you measure my love for you with what i can "give" you. you come to me asking for this *latest thing, this new desire, this want or impulse* and if i don't hand it to you right away, you throw a tantrum. you forget about me when you are having fun with your friends, when you are doing stuff you aren't supposed to do, but when in you're in trouble, you run back to me crying, expecting me to fix up after your mess. as a parent, i will gladly do so, because i love you. with the best of my ability, i will try to help you out of your mess, but you have to want my help. also know that every action has consequences in life and you must face don't run away from the discipline that comes with your disobedience. when life gets tough, it doesn't mean i love you less than when things are good. i love you, no matter what.

i love you the same in every season of your life and i hope that one day you will love me back that same way. i would gladly give my life over and over again for you just for you to realize that life is not about material things that you gain.

it hurts me as your parent when i see you frustrated - as you try to get "older - faster" and you don't enjoy each season of your life. you wish you could drive already when you haven't really tried the experience of riding your bike yet. life is too fast for you to rush it. enjoy your life my child. let me deal with the worries of tomorrow, for i am your parent and that is my responsibility.

today, live my child. breathe, laugh, play. love, to your fullest capacity...and enjoy your life. stop craving for things that others have and see the world of possibilities that are right in front of you. you may not know but you are already living out your dream little by little just by being yourself and loving others. you don't realize it coz you are too young to see it but i see you in all your greatness. i promise to be with you each step, loving you, encouraging you, reminding you who you are and who i know you will be if you choose to listen to me.

i love you, more than my life itself. know that. BELIEVE that. i've labored and fought for you even before you existed in this world and i will continue to till the end of time. i will never let you go and i am excited for all the things i have in store for you as i watch you grow in my love.


Your Parent

These also could be translated as:
*new toy - macs, cameras, iphones, latest technology
a new best friend who will keep you company - if you've been praying and waiting for a husband/wife
a new school - new job, promotion, etc
more money - means more money
cooler things - bigger house, nicer car, etc. etc.*

i originally wrote this for my son, but it flowed out in it's own direction and although it still could be for him, it is also for me...and for you. it's funny how we often look at kids and see their immaturity and not see ourselves that way...i know i often find myself telling my son to stop wanting things and see that he is blessed and justbe thankful for what he has...and yet, i forget to see how immature i look in God's eyes, when i do the exact same things and say the exact same things that i find immature in my son (who is only 8). :/ i hope and pray that i would be the best example my child will see so that He will learn to trust and wait upon His Daddy.

Galatians 4:6 "Because you are sons (& daughters), God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, "Abba, Father. So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir"
Romans 8:15-16 "For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship.And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children."