Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
-- Author Unknown
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
"The Taliban claimed responsibility for the death, saying on its Web site it killed the "foreign woman" for preaching Christianity in the country, adding that it had been following the woman for some time." (read about the woman's story; read info reagarding raised security)
it's happening in india...it's happening in iraq. (watch video)
please don't get me wrong, this blog does not to promote hate to others who believe in other gods (or to those who have no gods at all). we are called to love one another, no matter what each person believes. each individual is made in the image and likeness of God, so to see fellow human beings being killed because of their faith breaks my heart (whether christian, jews, muslim, buddhist, etc).
the reason why i write this blog today is for fellow christians to see the importance of prayer...not just for their self and their needs, but to also pray for others especially for those that are serving as missionaries in countries hostile to the gospel and are facing suffering because of their faith. pray for protection, for comfort, pray for open doors for God's Word to be preached and that His Word would be heard even louder than the fear of facing suffering. it's time that the church of Christ rise up and take the position of victory as we pray...for our battle is not against flesh and blood.
the apostle paul, who knew ALL about suffering had a little something to say regarding this topic. here is what he and others have to say about the importance of prayer.
"A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil...Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Pray...at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere. And pray for me, too. Ask God to give me the right words so I can boldly explain God’s mysterious plan that the Good News is for Jews and Gentiles alike.I am in chains now, still preaching this message as God’s ambassador. So pray that I will keep on speaking boldly for him, as I should. "- Apostle Paul in Ephesians 6:10-20 (NLT paraphrased)
“The evangelization of the world depends first upon a revival of prayer. Deeper than the need for workers; deeper far than the need for money; deep down at the bottom of our spiritual lives, is the need for the forgotten secret of prevailing, worldwide prayer.” - Robert Speer
“In no other way can the believer become as fully involved with God’s work, especially the work of world evangelism, as in intercessory prayer." - Dick Eastman
“When we rely upon organization, we get what organization can do; when we rely upon education, we get what education can do; when we rely upon eloquence, we get what eloquence can do. And so on. But when we rely upon prayer, we get what God can do.” - Dr. A. C. Dixon
"Prayer does not fit us for the greater work, prayer is the greater work". --Oswald Chambers
"God’s children and his enemies both make the same mistake. They both underestimate the power of prevailing prayer" - quote from the movie The List
"Pray like your life depends on it...pray like others' lives depend on it...because in the end, it really does". - patricia :)
Sunday, October 19, 2008
an exciting, family friendly and free block party!
There is something for all ages!
Food, Games, Live Entertainment...
and did we mention it's FREE ?!
FREE! FREE! FREE!
and FAMILY FRIENDLY!
We have a great line up of performers ready to hit the stage...
acoustic sets, hip hop sets, dance crews, comedians.
There's even 2 local radio stations sending their street teams
to help us kick off the block party!
Tunes & Treats.
Check back regularly for details as the event nears.
*PARKING will be available at no charge ---
across the street on the lower level of the Ralph's parking garage*
See you October 31st in Studio City!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
- my son was born on the year of the dragon (2000) - which could technically "redeem" the dragon symbol, so i was thinking of getting his name translated in chinese and get it tattooed on top of the dragon, but i just found out that i can't get a direct translation of his name (Christian) because his name's translation would read "disciple of Christ" and not christian because that word is not in the chinese vocabulary. i feel bad about this coz i've been thinking of doing this for about 3 years now and it sort of threw me off that i cant get his name translated...unless you know someone who can translate his name for me?!?! :) also, would that be ironic though to have a chinese astrology sign on my body, when technically as a christian, i don't believe in astrology?!?
- i was also thinking of getting it covered up, but it would result in me getting a BIGGER tattoo and that would be EXPENSIVE and hard to hide. i dunno what to cover it up with yet, maybe you could throw out a few ideas if you have some.
- i could just write the whole story of the revelation on my back and add a white horse with a man wearing a white robe riding over the dragon and add the lamp posts and the scrolls and those weird creatures that are part eagle/part lion/part something else and then tell people i am a prophet of old and the book of revelation is tattooed on my back. that would FOR SURE be an interesting conversation :)
- do i just do something completely new and add have a whole collection of tattoos?!?! i could possibly regret having them when i'm 70 and my body is all wrinkly or it might be something that i looove having because it could be my secret life statement hidden from all the world, except for me and God and those closest to me.
- or do i just leave it alone, let it be and stick with my original mushu?!?
i don't know. im still thinking about it. maybe you could help me sort through my thoughts regarding this issue. i am open to suggestions. feel free to leave comments, tattoo ideas, rebukes, remarks, bible scripture against tattoos, or what have you. maybe what you have to say can shine the light on this specific topic.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
don't you just hate having pimples on random places....like near the hole in the base of your nose or in the middle of your eyes (where the pimple looks like a 3rd eye), or right on the tip of your nose? and most of the time, when you get pimples in those places, it HURTS 10x more than ordinary zits. and what makes it worst, is that when you talk to people, they either:
1. try and pretend that they don't "see" your pimple but you catch their eyes gazing right at the core of the zit, only to zoom their focus back on you when you call their attention.
2. they don't even pretend not to notice....they just STARE at it like the pimple is calling their name.
3. my sisters are the worst...coz they actually tap on the pimple and start laughing right after asking me if it hurts when they do that.
sheeeez. i write this because i have one of those random pimples right now and it's on the outer part of my ear. i feel like my right ear is swollen (but it really isn't) and every time i clean it with a q-tip in the morning, it HURTS like crazy.
disappear stooooopid pimple...please disappear!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
my son ended up asking permission to sleep over his grandmothers house as well, so i let him. it's a saturday night, im alone with nothing to do (wooohooo)! i turn on the TV and lo behold, sleepless in seattle is on TNT (double woooohoooo). it's raining outside, a chilly night here in LA. im in my pajamas, i pulled out a blanket and i'm watching the movie on their nice tv. i'm going to make tea or coffee and just enjoy. perfect.
the first "down" time i've had in weeks (no joke). i couldn't have asked for a better saturday night.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
this is not an easy thing for me to write. this requires utmost vulnerability. but i know that it must be done. because if this story can enlighten just one life to come to the saving and healing knowledge of Jesus, then i have done my part in knowing that my life and my experiences has served a part of its purpose.
i was a victim of abuse - physically, sexually, emotionally, verbally. it didn't happen just once either, it was repetitive and went on for years and years. you can just imagine the ways that i learned to numb myself from feelings, from guilt, from shame, from wanting to give and receive love. i taught myself that my emotions were not real and because of that, i lived a life with a heart so hardened, i didn't care about anything or anyone. i masked my pain with alcohol, with partying, with relationships, with drugs, with an "i dont care about anyone" attitude, with a hard heart. i struggled with my beauty, my identity, my sexuality.
the results of abuse in one person's life have a long time effect, especially if it's sexual abuse. we believe the lies that are told - that it was our fault, that we wanted it, that we deserved it. we embrace a poor image of ourselves and end up living out those lies as if it was our real identity. i grew up in complete mistrust, in deep pain, in darkness. thinking to myself, "there is no God, for how could He allow something like this to happen to me if He loved me".
i began a journey in my life to find answers for myself. but that led me no where. i grew up with so many set backs, so many fears to the point of paranoia. the repercussions of abuse go deeper than what most people can begin to imagine, because it scars their heart, their mind, their soul. i thought my life had no hope. i found myself on a path of self destruction as i tried to look for answers to heal my hurting yet hardened heart.
my Answer came when i met Him. and just like saul on the road to damascus as saul was on his way to do more destruction, He stopped me with His saving, Amazing Grace. in no other eyes did i find the answers but in His. no one but Him could get me out of that lifestyle of despair.
the One i was mad at for so long. the One i ran away from. the One i hated. He understood all along. people beat Him. people spit on His face. they hit Him. they mocked Him. they whipped Him, they kicked Him, they tortured Him, they abused Him. He did NOTHING to deserve it, but He took it in anyway.
He knew He needed to go through with it because 2,000 years later, a child would go through some form of pain and abuse. He knew that years later that same child would look upon His Word and see that He could relate to how she felt. He KNEW what was going on, He knows how it feels. His life was a life that is worthy to emulate, with His example of Love, of Forgiveness, of knowing His identity, of Redemption and Restoration, despite the pain that was caused by the abuse He faced.
and it's because of that, that i fell in Love. asked often by many, why i am such a Jesus freak... my answer is because i KNOW i have found Truth. He is Love. He saved me, He changed me. He is so undeniably real in my life that no philosopher or other belief can change how i feel, because i've felt His Love first hand. i've come to accept the fact that the pain that we face in this life won't go away, because we are alive. we would have to be dead to feel no pain. but in the midst of problems and trials, He is the One who is able to give a new beginning and a purpose, every day.
He taught me, that I could love myself, because He loved me first. (1John4:19)
He showed me that He is able to erase the sting of the past. (Isaiah 1:18)
He set my identity on Him and i am the apple of His eye. (Zechariah 2:8)
He reminds me that my past is not me and I am forgiven. (Psalm 103:12)
He tells me He makes me new. (Revelation 21:5)
He shows me that He wants me to be free. (Galatians 5:1)
He has redeemed me. (Job 33:28, Psalm 71:23, Isaiah 43:1, Isaiah 44:2)
He taught me that forgiveness is a must for me to move on. (Matthew 6:14, Collosians 3:13)
He showed me that restoration was possible. (Psalm 23:3, Psalm 71:20, Isaiah 57:18)
He tells me that i have a destiny, a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11, Provers 23:18, Jeremiah 31:17)
in fact, the miracle of His love was able to transcend beyond what i could imagine, because one of my abusers has asked for forgiveness from me and from God and changed his lifestyle and ways completely. there is now, restoration in the relationship, because instead of acting out of wounds, we see Jesus in each other. and the sting of the past is not there anymore. tell me, is that not a miracle working God?
this doesn't by any means, negate the importance of counseling, prayer, friendship, surrounding yourself with a healthy environment and again, prayer. these steps were necessary for me to walk in the path of healing. but it was by His mercy and grace that brought me through.
today, I live so whole, so free. free to hope, to live, to love, to forgive, free to laugh. free to be me - THE REAL ME. not masked by pain anymore. truth be told, there are still days when the fears that once gripped my heart comes back to haunt me. but even in the midst of that, i face the reflection of my heart, which is the Word of GOd and i see and choose to believe the Truth that is written about me.
i have come to terms with my past and that is why i can share it with you today. it is what it is, but i will not let it get the best of me. i ask that those that have similar pasts would see that it's possible to be free. there is no fear in love because Perfect Love casts out fear. (1John 4:18-19)
in the beginning, i said i was a victim. i said was, because i am not a victim anymore. i am victorious in every way. i walk in Love and i celebrate my life, knowing i have a story to share and a purpose for my life. i pray that you will find it in your heart do the same, because your story (whatever your story is) is important and needs to be heard and know that your life has a purpose as well.
dear reader, if you are a victim of abuse, please listen to my heart when i tell you that no other arms are safer than His. run to Him. He is waiting for you. if you need someone to talk to, i am here. call a hot line, tell a trusted friend, gets some counseling. if you are in any kind of abusive relationship, please get out NOW, please say something and get help. yes, change is possible, but he or she will not change with you there. YOU WILL NOT CHANGE THE PERSON. don't try to be the sacrificial lamb, coz there's only one person who can do that and Jesus took that place already. you need to get out. the first step to healing is to admit that it is actually happening to you. do not be afraid to tell someone. i write this to let you know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE and that there is no need to feel ashamed.
if you are the abuser, please please please STOP. the sooner you stop, the better. get some help. get some help. i cannot say it enough - GET SOME HELP! my abuser did and his life is now changed. i've forgiven him and there is no scarlet letter hanging around his head anymore. there's still hope for you, if you are willing to change. you need counseling, you need forgiveness, you need Him. like i said, the foot of the Cross accepts anyone who is willing to change, so there is hope for you but i beg you, please stop and get some help.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Just like this sunday school song goes...the truth applies to kids and to us adults as well. be careful what you do "in secret", for one day all the "secret sin seeds" that is sown will bear fruit and will hurt not just us, but others as well..
Oh, be careful little eyes, what you see.
There's a Father up above, looking down in tender love,
So be careful little eyes, what you see.
Be careful little ears what you hear
Be careful little mouth what you say...
Be careful little hands, what you touch...
Be careful little feet, where you go...
1Cor. 1:4 - He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts.
This one is called The Number Four.
4 things I did today:
1) read psalm 29 with my son.
2) cooked fried rice.
3) had a 2 hour talk with Victor about random things.
4) massaged jenamay and my son.
4 things on my to-do list:
1) start exercising more often.
2) finish packing.
3) find shoes for the wedding this weekend.
4) pick a book for my "read of the month".
4 of my guiltiest pleasures:
1) coffee. i can't stop it. it's an addiction that i've come to embrace.
2) surfing the net, blogging, chatting with friends. the internet just sucks me in.
3) locking myself in the bathroom so i can have some alone time without being bothered and asked to "do something".
4) walking by macy's home section and just drooling over china and lladro pieces.
4 random facts about me:
1) i love massages - getting it and giving it.
2) im probably the only asian that doesnt like sushi.
3) im only 5'1 and 3/4.
4) my favorite dog was tyson, my rottweiler.
4 bloggers i am tagging:
EEHH UUHH... Those are the only people who i know read my blog. i cant tag mary anne back, can i?
ooh oohh IVY :)
yep. there's 5 for ya. i know i was just supposed to do 4 but who cares?! :)