Friday, August 29, 2008

v.s. # 2 - deafness.

v.s. # 2 - deafness.

yes another venting session about crazy drivers, this time it's about people who drive with their music soooo loud that i can hear the lyrics of the yin yang twins' whisper song, even if the car is 3 lanes away.

the other day, i was sandwiched in between 2 cars with drivers who were deaf. one was listening to a flow rida song and one was listening to some akon song. and i was right smack dab in the middle of that. even worst, i was listening to a really good sermon in 99.5 KTLA & their music was so loud that i couldn't hear my own stereo. (I usally don't listen to sermons on my way home from work, but that day, i don't know what got over me). so back to the story, we were at a stoplight & the one guy on my right looked right across me to the other car driver on my left & turned the volume up even higher. and ofcourse the guy on my left did the same thing. and well, there was me, poor old me. i couldn't really do anything about it coz the A/C in my car isn't working so i just sat there in the middle of this speaker war, as i felt the mixed pulsating beat in my eardrums as i was trying to erase all the dirty lyrics of those 2 rap songs in my head.

why do people need for their songs to be played that loud? don't get me wrong, i appreciate a nice sound system in the car, but only to a certain extent. i think you should keep music to yourself and not share your songs to the rest of the other 8 cars that surround you, coz your music may not be what i was wanting for me to hear, or even my son to hear. unless ofcourse you want me to blast out the 99.5 KTLA sermon i was listening to and share the sermon with you as well :)

so next time you decide to turn your speakers up and play some dirty rap song so that my son can hear the obscene lyrics, remember that i can get outta my car and give you a good butt whoop to teach you to be more sensitive to others out there.

or, i'll probably just play mind games with you and blast my stereo louder & play a really obnoxious spice girls song and sing along with it in my loudest voice...

"stop right now...thank you very much...i need somebody with a human toouucchhh....hey you always on the run, gotta slow it down baby, gotta have some fuuuuun!!!" unto others what you want them to do unto you.


since gas has been quite expensive this past month, i decided that the best thing to do to save a little bit of extra money is for christian & i to ride bikes to work. although i live only about a couple of miles away from work (yes, i am lucky), the daily errands & 2-3x a week trips to church which is about 22 miles away one way takes a toll on the wallet, or in my case, dave ramsey gas money budget envelope.

christian received a nice schwinn bike from one of our dear friends from chicago when we were there so he was down for it. but i didn't have a bike & i don't have a budget to buy a new one right now, so i went on a quest to see if i was able to borrow/buy a used bike. thank God sami had an old bike from when she was younger that was just sitting in their bodega and she lent it to me. the bike is a youth bike - just slightly bigger than chino's (LOL), but since i'm quite short, it seems to work out okay. so these past 2 weeks, we have started to take the bike to work & going back home. 4 miles a day - not bad!

i thought i would hate the idea at first, but i really like it now. in fact, it has been such a wonderful time for christian and i and we look forward to doing this every day. its a special time we have together to just laugh over silly things we see on the road :) i'm not much of an athletic "type" so the fact that i do like riding the bike is quite new to me. christian is ecstatic about it coz he loves riding his bike (but he hates the fact that he has to get up earlier). and this "new found transportation" helps me with having a bit of exercise that i really need.

my hand & the handle bars of sami's bike :)

thank God it's quite warm here in LA! we can actually take the bike year round (unless it rains). hurray for driving less & riding more! hurray for spending less on gas & being more healthy!

in the next few months, i will be saving up for a cruiser (something like this that's baby blue with a basket) hopefully i'll have enough money to buy a used one to give to myself as a bday & xmas present.... :)

Monday, August 25, 2008

summer sessions - half off.

if you've been wanting to get a portrait session done by a professional photographer but never had the budget to do so - NOW IS YOUR CHANCE!

Don't miss out on this:

Jen May Photography has cut the price for her portrait sessions in half for the summer & she's extended it for 3 more weeks!

Avail of this really good deal!!

Includes a mini-session at a local destination, a proof slideshow disc of all images, 1 complimentary 8x10, and online private gallery.

Only $75 on the weekdays or $100 on the weekends!

Hurry, because it ends soon!

*she's the same photographer who took the beautiful shot of me & christian on the couch :) she's really really good at what she does!

Friday, August 22, 2008

v.s. #1: psycho drivers.

venting session I

i didn't really get this much when i lived in the mid-west coz most people there are very chill, but here in LA & especially in the philippines, we have a lot of psycho i dedicate my first venting session to all the psycho-furious-road-rage drivers out there...

so there i was sitting in my car in front of the stop light, waiting for the light to change, really just minding my business, probably singing songs out loud. i see the red light change into green, so i shift my foot from the brake on to the gas pedal when about 2 seconds later BAM - some annoyed person HONKS at me as if shouting at me to tell me to hurry the #*#* up.

my question is: is that really necessary?!?!?! if i sat there for a good 5 seconds longer while chatting it up on my phone, then i'd understand the need to honk. but to honk at me as soon as the light changes?? THAT REALLY ANNOYS ME! honking at me is equivalent to saying "f*** you" in my face.

so what i used to love to do when people did that to me was to drive about 10miles an hour and wait for them to pass me by. and when they pass by with their windows rolled down and their middle finger extended up at me, i just smile at them like nothing happened and step on the gas and drive fast enough to cut them off only to do it all over again :)

but now that im a christian and i'm supposed to practice controlling my anger issues & loving my enemies - i just whisper a soft prayer under my breath, drive behind the crazy driver and calmly wait for the light to change....

and as soon as the light changes...i hooooooooooonk at them & have the time of my life laughing in my car. if anything, at least i got a good laugh out of it.

i may not have anger issues anymore but i'm sure God is still working on the revenge part ;)

personal shrink.

sooo....i was checking out my blog site & saw that i had only posted up 2 blogs this month of august. things have been quite busy this past month since im preparing for another school year, while working full time & taking my son to & from sports practices & games. i haven't really had much time to sit down and type my thoughts out...which is sad coz there's hundreds of them running through my mind every minute. i only really have the time to write in the wee hours of the morning or in the middle of the night, or maybe, if i get lucky, during my lunch break.

so i decided to make my own little series of short-none-heavy-thinking posts called venting sessions (v.s. #1), just to give my ever so analyzing mind a chance to release all these crazy thoughts & questions in my head. the world wide web will be my shrink, where i will be free to do all my ramblings - good and bad. you're more than welcome to share your own insight, questions, comments, or if you want, to not read my ranting & raving at all.

please remember though, that i am not asking for solutions, strong opionions or sympathy. these series of blogs will be my personal venting session to the world. so if something that i say bothers you, please don't take it out on me and don't take it personal. feel free to go & write a blog of your own. :)

Thursday, August 21, 2008

jesus calls them the greatest.

kids are so much fun to have. i've had the privilege of having kubie over our house this summer. it has been crazy fun having both christian & kubie together for a loooong period of time. sometimes it can be tiring, especially if they fight over the smallest stuff, but most of the time they bring so much joy.
to others having a lot of kids around is not a source of enjoyment but of discomfort. the noise, the whining, the loud laughter, the 24/7 suite-life-of-hannah-so-raven reruns will be enough to drive one mad. but to those who are gifted to have a mothering heart...well, i know it sounds crazy, but it can be very therapeutic. just ask most mothers out there and they'll tell you its true. a house that has been filled with laughter & noises for so many years that suddenly stays quiet for a long period of time will make a mother deaf and be filled with a strange longing to hear some type of noise.

kids teach us to dream big, play often, believe the best, be silly & have fun. they teach us to take the time to smile, smell flowers, look at the clouds, see the small details in life that are often over-looked like a funny looking spider crawling up the wall. kids teach us faith, forgiveness, hope, joy & love in such a pure way. They teach us how to live - fully & freely. no wonder Jesus called them the greatest!

how many of us adults have been scarred & hardened by life that we forget to live like this? i pray that i would always enjoy each season of my life with child like awe & child like faith. i hope to never lose the "child" in me. the older i get, the more i want for God to restore the innocence and purity of my heart, mind & soul that i may always have a child-like attitude & child-like faith.

and i thank my son & my sister & the other kids that surround me, for always reminding me that there's more to life than paying bills & worrying about tomorrow. they've taught me that life is supposed to be enjoyed and celebrated every moment, every day.

thanks kids! you guys are the best examples ever!

Matthew 18:1-5 - The Greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven 1At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" 2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5"And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me. (NIV)

their version of the "step-brothers" movie poster

Saturday, August 16, 2008

growing pains.

these past few weeks, christian has been complaining about how his legs get a painful feeling from time to time, especially after playing his basketball games. at first i thought it was just muscle cramps, but after researching about it online, i found out that he was going through growing pains.

i talked to him about it after, telling him that it wasn't anything he did to himself that made the pain happen. i found myself telling him that his body needs to go through that, coz this is a part of the process of getting taller, which he needs to do in order to grow in a healthy way. i told him to continue to play sports, stretch, drink milk & vitamins to help his growing body get everything it needs for this season of his life.

now, i have no idea how it feels like to have those growing pains in a vertical manner, because i am short & i am not blessed with height. but in the recent months, i have made horrible choices with my food intake & lack of exercise that i have experienced these growing pains horizontally, meaning i'm gaining weight & i've developed a back ache and chest pains because of it. i too, like christian, also have grown, only in an unhealthy way.

2 different kinds of pain - 2 different kinds of growth - 2 different results.

VERTICAL PAIN - i've always wondered why painful things have to happen to people, especially those closest to my heart. it breaks my heart to see good people in pain, especially if they "did nothing" to deserve it. but i needed this analogy of chino's growing pains to show me, that although heart wrenching, we sometimes need pain in order for us to grow in a healthy way. just like my son & his aching legs. he needs for his muscles to stretch, his ligaments & tendons to grow, in order for him to "reach his full height & growth & remain healthy". as a parent, i don't want to see him in pain. but i know it is essential.

did he want to be in pain? - NO.
is it beneficial for him in the future? - YES.
is it beneficial for me & others? - YES

vertical pain is much needed for our healthy growth. although unasked for and unwanted, it is absolutely necessary for us to go through with it. to stretch everything that is within us in order to grow taller & stronger. does our Heavenly Father like it when He sees His children in pain? I doubt that. i believe He felt just the same as me, with not wanting to see my child in pain. but He also knows that there are things that He allows that we must go through in order for us to mature & to be a better person, for our benefit & for others too.

HORIZONTAL PAIN - is likened to the pain we feel when we've made poor choices in life (in my case,its like like laziness & over eating..LOL). most of the time, it comes back to haunt us. this pain is not good & sometimes harmful. more often than not, aside from the pain, it comes with other bad consequences for us & for others. it's funny because most people who deliberately choose to do what they're not supposed to do, continue to do it anyway & will get themselves & others into trouble in the long run. in the end, people end up miserable, hurt, and they find themselves further & deeper into the problem. no good growth, just a lot of "excess" things to get rid off so lighten the load (or in my case, my weight).

but hopefully, this pain of weight gain will compel me to CHOOSE to change & make it right. i can stay here and allow myself to get fatter & develop different sicknesses, or i can use the pain as an inspiration to grow and turn it around & become healthy.

do i want to be in pain? - NO.
is it beneficial for me in the future? - NO.
is it beneficial for others? - NO.

2 different kinds of pain - 2 different kinds of growth - 2 different results.

healthy pain is necessary for growth. unhealthy pain is not necessary, but if we choose to, it can cause us to wake up & turn things around. i've had a mix of both, some because i've made poor choices, but some i can truly say i did nothing to deserve it. what i do know is that the pain (either good or bad) that was felt from both situations were very vital in making me who i am right now.

and i've learned, through the process of pain, that i am such a softie on the inside. i never thought that my heart could be this pliable. i am more vulnerable, more loving, more patient, more understanding, more compassionate. but i have also seen these shoulders of mine carry weight that i never thought i could possibly do. i am also more of a fighter, a warrior, not willing to back down at the slightest pain inflicted by life's trials.

i am definitely clothed with a graceful, tenacious strength. and it is a gift i am grateful for. and i would never have been able to say that without undergoing all the pain that was and still is being sent my way.

dear reader, if you are going through some type of pain right now, i pray that whatever life throws your way, you will learn to take it in, learn & grow from it. if it is horizontal pain, i pray that you will choose to change your mind set & your lifestyle and let go of the "unnecessary weights" that you may grow in a healthy way. it will be good for you and for others who you love the most too.

if it's vertical pain, hold on to His hand, and trust that He will give you His strength to withstand the pressure. know that no matter how painful your circumstance, He will give you the faith to help you go & grow through the pain. and in the end of it, you will come out like gold. just like mayo clinic says: "Remind your child that growing pains are normal — and they won't last forever". My friend, it wont last forever

1Peter 4:12-13;19 Friends, when life gets really difficult, don't jump to the conclusion that God isn't on the job. Instead, be glad that you are in the very thick of what Christ experienced. This is a spiritual refining process, with glory just around the corner.So if you find life difficult because you're doing what God said, take it in stride. Trust him. He knows what he's doing, and he'll keep on doing it. (msg)

1Peter5:8-11 Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You're not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It's the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won't last forever. It won't be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, he does. (msg)