written on May 30, 2006 @3:35PM
I feel so numb,
it's like i'm barely breathing
and i'm drowning in my tears.
My heart grieves.
I long for an answer,
a touch, an embrace.
To hear Your voice say "it's gonna be ok".
For someone who has faced numerous battles
and taught herself to be strong,
I suddenly finds myself backed in a corner,
no where to go, no where to run.
That vulnerable feeling that I despise the most.
Circumstances that's supposed to teach me to be strong
is making me feel so weak.
As the wind pushes and tosses me from side to side,
I ask You..."God are You asleep?"
"do You not see?"
and You say "oh you of little faith.."
with one word can't circumstances change in a second?
I simply bow down and worship and ask
that you give me Your joy
for it is my strength.
My strength to run, to laugh, to live.
To know that my hope is in You.
Nehemiah 8:10b "Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength"