Tuesday, December 14, 2004

insignificant details.

Insignificant details.

Written on December 14, 04 @ 11:31AM

its time for a new blog....actually i have nothing to say but i thought hey...why not write about nothing?! don't you just hate that?!?! when people write about absolutely nothing...then they just add emotions to it...like the way i'm doing now...i mean...its very unlikely that some life changing incident happens everyday...so mostly all the days that pass us will be locked & stored in our memory box & we will forget about them eventually unless in that day we have our "MOMENTS".....so instead of erasing the memory... we choose to blog about our nothings just so that we can recall what happened because honestly that day wasn't even worth remembering at all.....

example: "ahhhhh this day was okay. i was bummed. we didn't do much....blah blah blah" ....

which actually translates to "i'm writing about nothing & i wan't to share my empty day with you"

then we leave comments that really don't mean anything...just so we have something to say...even if what we have to say doesn't need to be said at all....but we enjoy reading the "nothingness" of other people & how much it made their day & we also love leaving comments that mean nothing.

i find it strange...but honestly, it's what makes the nothingness really interesting....it's the way we're so involved in the insignificant details of what happens everyday...its what makes the day significant...how we care so much about the nothings...

i hope you didn't just waste your time reading about nothing??!?!?!?!

Thursday, November 11, 2004

pity me.

Pity me

Written on November 11, 2004 @ 1:02PM.

i felt a little "down" earlier today… no not a little... actually i felt really bad....i hurt my foot yesterday & now i can't walk without a "cane"...

then today things just didn't feel right...it was one of those days. i felt sad & lonely, also frustrated...a lot of emotions running through my mind & my heart. i've kind of been feeling the pressure of being a single mom for the past few days actually...and its HARD!!! its emotionally draining & physically draining....plus celibacy & giving your life purely to God till the right man comes…its extremely difficult i might add!...

how can a woman feel like a woman especially when at home you have to be a mother & do "mommy" things but still be a single woman at the same time?!! do u even get what i'm typing? its weird, I know. I have to find that certain balance of being a single woman & a mother....i mean even young people assume they have a "hard time" not having a boyfriend/girlfriend & not having anyone around them to make them feel special...

imagine the longing of a mother who wants to feel like a woman from time to time?? plus aside from emotions, its draining to think of work (& the lack of it), my dreams of having my own place & my own car, going back to college to get a degree, finances, etc. etc. yada yada yada.

My emotions today are that bad...its like i'm in a season of just loneliness, unfruitfulness, & barreness.

but i am thankful that everytime i get on my knees (literally) to pray to my God...i know He hears me & is attentive to my pain & cries...its not a magical thing where all the pain suddenly disappears...but amidst all the emotions...God is faithful to make me feel blessed & to rejoice in Him always no matter how things are....

He made me realize that when you think you have problems, you shouldn't forget look at the people around you with bigger problems so that your life doesn't seem so tough...its like the teenagers who don't get what they want...they think they can act all bossy or trip just because they don't have their freedom to date or go out & party or do whatever...but its funny how maybe in the same neighborhood or school, another teenager is crying about being molested or raped. it makes the first kid look kinda pathetic!!!!!

i may have reasons to grumble & complain about my life coz i have been through a LOT of pain....but in the other side of the world there's a mother who just lost her child, or a child who just lost their parents...& when i think about them...i know that i am blessed...beyond all that i could ever ask or imagine...& that somehow...my problems don't seem so big after all! He carries my burderns...so I don't have to do it by myself.... the reality & pain of being a single mom & all the pressures that go with it is still there...but i have something to smile about...because i know that NOTHING is every worth stressing over (matthew6)

so yeah...each & everyone of us have our own "pity-me" story to tell & own burdens whether big or small. the thing is we don't have to carry them. It says "cast your cares upon Him for He cares for you (1Peter 5:7)"...to cast is to throw...so throw your burdens & emotions to Him & He will be faithful to give you peace....even in the middle of painful situations or just an emotionally dragging day (just like what i had). This faithful saying has been around for almost 2,000 years & still applies today...."stand firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. (1peter5:9 NIV)" or as another translation put it..."You're not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It's the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith" (msg bible)

so no matter what you're going through....know that God is able to give you rest & peace in the middle of the mundane things that life throws at you or the big obstacles that get in our way.

Monday, November 8, 2004

love song for a savior.

posted November 08, 2004 @ 10:33 AM

In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"

"my heart beats for You"

by: Jars of Clay

*****my heart beats for you my Jesus*****

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

the "code".

written on October 26, 2004 @ 8:59pm

Don’t you ever wonder why throughout the years there always have been & always will be ostentatious attacks on Christianity & the Deity of Jesus Christ? It’s truly amazing that a single man and his "theories" could mislead 4 million people to question their faith & seek another "truth". What’s sad is a part of those 4 million people are in fact so called "Christians" or people who grew up in Christian homes (whether Catholic, Protestant or the like). What is sadder is that these "Christians" have fallen & crumbled in their faith because they are biblically illiterate & have chosen to believe in a fictional story about Mr. Brown’s incorrect historical research which is full of deception & error rather than reading their Bible to know the Truth.

The atrocity of the conclusions & theories in the book, The Da Vinci Code, has duped so many people into believing the lies that is stated in the book. We can read fictional books from Tolkien, Rowling, Ludlum (etc etc) and never even give a thought that goblins exist or talking, walking trees lurk around somewhere or that Mr. Bourne is really a secret spyt…but when we read a book that incorrectly states that Jesus was a sinner, that God isn’t perfect & that the Bible isn’t true….we are na├»ve enough to presume that the information in the book is true and we buy it like the gullible people we are. Its crazy that one man’s claim to fame has deceived so many people around to question the holiness of Jesus & God. Its even more absurd that we will believe in anything that comes our way just to "put down Jesus". Don't you think its also strange that no other "religion" has ever really been put down more than Christianity has? You will never hear people talk/write about Budhha having a "prostitute" as a wife, Mohammed & his sins, Krishna & her lusts, but when it comes to Jesus, people can blaspheme His name all they want & make up ridiculous stories & we buy it.

Dan Brown’s alleged statements against Christianity & Jesus are in fact absurd. He continues to challenge the irrefutable evidence on the deity of Christ. My friends, there is a fine line between reality & fantasy; fact & fiction. Fiction is exactly what The Da Vinci Code is. How strange it is that Mr. Brown chooses to challenge 2,000 years of history just to make a quick buck & its sad that just because he shuffled a few statements & stories around, so many people are made to think & believe that he has just found a "new revelation" against Christianity. This is not new, after all, this has been happening for the past 2,000 years. Many just like Mr. Brown have come & many have gone, many "best-sellers" have gone up & down the chart, and yet the number one best seller yet continues to be the book which started the controversy in the first place....The Bible.

To those of you who love a challenge, I dare you, to read the Book that started all the controversy. Study & research the Word for yourself to see if infact what Mr. Brown claims in his book is true or not, before concluding the fact that Mr. Brown is a genius. Further, I challenge you who have fallen in faith with Jesus or those who don't know who He is, to ask Him if He really does exist & if He does, ask Him to show Himself strong in your life that you may believe that He does exist. I dare you to try it! Before you make a conclusion, you must hear both sides of the story in order for you not to be biased. Here's a challenge to hear the other side of the story... Jesus' side.

Ask & it will be given...seek & it will be found...knock & the door will open.

Monday, September 27, 2004

the tongue.

written on september 27, 2004 @ 8:39 AM

thought of the day:

"the tongue..it is a world of iniquity...it is a fire that no man can tame...out of the mouth come blessings & curses...my brethren...these things ought not to be..." james 3:5-10

aaah to hold ur tongue when everything inside you wants to scream, cuss & answer back to whoever is getting on your nerves at that moment...it just seems so right doesn’t it? but i've realized that it takes a much stronger person to hold your tongue & not say anything stupid at the heat of the moment. yeah...i need to learn to be more wise....to hold this darn tongue of mine when I’m in a really bad place...i admit that a stupid person says the first thing that pops into his or her mind...but a prudent person learns to season his or her words with love always...i need to be more prudent...because more often than not…im stupid in that way...i cant control my mouth…but i have to start somewhere & i choose to start today to control the words coming out of my mouth (its so much harder to stop having an attitude problem than to start having one)...

a woman with a quiet & gentle spirit is the kind of woman i want to be after all..

God teach me to control my tongue...help me to speak love always even in the middle of the greatest problems....its hard but i can always look to you because youu did it on the cross for me....you died...you were persecuted...but you said nothing at all except declare your love for me....i need your help to be that way...because left to myself....i would die...its only you who can help me to say nothing at all when im in my lowest, help me not to grumble and complain & help me to realize how blessed i really am to have what i have in order for me to praise you in all circumstances & to give thanks in everything...even in the midst of trials. In Jesus name...Amen

Thursday, January 15, 2004

about me.

welcome to ricianne(dot)com. [pronounced: ree-shawn]. ricianne is my child-hood nickname. you clicked on this coz you probably wanna know a lil bit about me...and why i think am God's favorite... well...read on to find out.

my personal slogan is: "Jesus loves you, but i'm His favorite!" yep, i actually think it's absolutely true. [okay fine, i think you're His favorite too...im just His favoritest!]. Hey give me a break...moses called himself the most humble man on earth too okay?! ;)

here's random facts about me:
  • i'm @jcravalho1's wife, his crazy half, best friend and partner in crime.
  • i'm @xtianroa's and Karielle's mommy and their number one cheerleader.
  • i'm @bambamroa's master and his favorite person to be with not anymore. john has taken my place.
  • i keeps it real...too real sometimes...i have really low BS tolerance.
  • im an uber-extrovert trying hard to be an introvert.
  • i love my sisters and i have the best girl friends ever.
  • im sometimes sassy and a bit crassy. 
  • i got kicked out of 6 schools in high school. yes 6. to read more of my testimony, you can go here and here.
  • i LOVE telling stories so i guess that makes me a story-teller. a very animated story-teller with my hands swinging all over the place.
  • i like good food. i get giddy over fried chicken, coffee and chocolate.
  • these are my top 6 super powers
  • i believe that i am a force to be reckoned with because i am a daughter of the King. 
  • i like wearing flipflops slippahs and sneakers. i miss wearing boots. i hate wearing heels. 
  • half the time i have no clue what the heck im doing. just ask my husband.
  • the jokes i tell and laugh at are not seminary approved.
  • i love God and i love people
  • i hate eating veggies.
  • the reality is: i'm just a nobody, trusting a big SOMEBODY to tell everybody else about His love. that's it. that's why i do what i do. and i have a lot of fun along the way trying to figure out this beautiful journey called life.
i try my best to see the beauty in everything and everyone God puts along my path. my mission in life is to be used as a vessel of God to share His freedom, hope, joy and love to a hurting world. my dream is to help encourage, equip and empower people [especially His Bride], to live out their God-given dreams and live lives to the fullest potential so they can "go and make disciples of all nations." one of my greatest passion is to be able to be a voice to create awareness about social injustices and do something to help abolish abuse and human trafficking. that...and i love showing people that living a spirit-filled, obedient and godly life is actually crazy fun.

this is why i write. i write because i want the world to know that the God i serve is alive and that He loves His children so much. i write, i teach, i work, i speak, i breathe, i live for an audience of ONE. because i don't want my life to be about me. in the end... i want my life to be all about Him.

hope you enjoy reading about my journey and

have fun getting to know the craziness that is: